life's a one way road

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

it's one of those days where...
...emotions just gush out from being pent up and just goes wild. Wild n i mean wild... So wild that one minute u r laughing happily n the next minute ya heart just seems to wrench with tears... n u find ya eyes on the brim of bursting. But u know that u haf to keep it in there... Rush to the toilet... turn away.. watever it is.. hide that bead of tear that threatens to burst any moment.
...u know u haf to be strong. u know u R strong n u haf been strong. But there's still this lil part of u that hasn't grown that strong. A part of you that just seems to want to fall back to the self... the self that no one wants to see u in... the self that u hate but yet sometimes love... the self that is so in touch with ya real self which u r trying so hard to hide.
...u just wished u could turn back the hands of time.
...u wish u could tell the person u truely love that u love him.
...u wish that there's someone whom u could call him darling, sweetie, hunny, baby from heart.
...wish that u would just let someone love you n shower you with all his love... accept wat he has to give without having to give anything. But u know this would never last coz u haf nothing for him.
...u r totally upset n feel that the day is outright shit from the start and just wish that special someone is just sitting right next to u. But then u know he's so near but yet so far. But yet u know why he can't be ard.
...when u just feel like going by the beach to just enjoy the breeze, but u can't.
...when u just wish to hang out with some of ya close pals... pals whom u can talk abt anything n everything.
...one minute u just want to pack ya bags n leave for the faraway land. But yet u know that there's still this small lil part of u that is holding u back.
...u just miss the companionship of friends from far away lands.
...u r not fine but u tell everyone u r fine coz u simply just not want to talk abt it.
...just wonder wat's going on ard u. wat's going on with yaself.
...wanna rush over to ya friends n show them that big fat smile that comes from ya heart. esp from all the encouragement n concern they show u. :)Coz it's then u know that u'll never walk alone.
...just want to cry. And u do. And friends will tell u that it's not worth crying over someone who doesn't love you anymore
...where blogging is the outlet for some of ya emotions. So is crying. And after that u are strong and cheerful once again.

sun sets @ 1:09 AM

Comments: Post a Comment