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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

What are you proud of???
*the question was posed to me n it continues to daunt me
maybe i haf simply nothing to be proud of.
underachieved.
another statistic ard.
:(

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Hej hej. Still thinking that i'm in London.... then u r wrong. Muahaha... Been back for 2 days liaoz.. N it's been a crazy 2 days... Haven had much sleep. Sheesh... Surviving on coffee n i dunno-what-else since it's definitely not love. Muahaha... Came back n tried to do some work but i was too sleepy to even move any inch of my brain cell... Duhz... since i din catch much sleep the nite before... though i dozed off a few times while we watched movie.
Zombified state i had presentation the next day. It's the worst presentation n presentation slides ever... I swear it's the worst *sulks* disgrace to self. Haiz... I was too tired so prepared the slides only on the day of the presentation... but that never was a problem *appreciates all my past zai project mates* So where does the problem lie??? 1. horrors of horros... i did the report n got my project mate to edit the financial figures and update them... but it was only done on page 1. 2. i din put in the standard sch format... n to realize it wasn't done... submitted in the raw form 3. presentation morning... discovers that the report remained unread by the mate. *faintz* So essentially... FLOP. Me do report n presentation. *curse n swear* Wellz.. i had almost wanted to give up on this course n project due to some pple's lack of initiative. N so i can extend my stay in london.. hurh hurh... n not haf to pay for the brillantly priced air tix back. Haiz... Somemore i'm not in need of transferring this credit back... but the mate had to pass this course to graduate... so being his project mate... tong lor... BUT wah liewz... buai zi dong. Haiz. N and the prof sucks full time. Pui.
Anw tt damn presentation is over n done with. Report is half screwed lah... couldn't upload it... so had to print... but i took this as a chance to edit the report. Keke... N so as usual got to bug someone. N that someone keeps telling me everything's done. If it's done... u think i dun want to submit ah? TMD.. hold on a report for wat xia? Not like it will generate me grades or money. I got better things to do... like... plan my travel, mug, pack. OMG. Pack... headache... i open my wardrobe n is faced with a wardrobe full of clothes (can i pls pay someone to pack for me???) Oh... n winter clothes haf been packed out liaoz.. so xiao liaoz...
Along tt line... exchange is ending. Mixed feelings. Though majority of the feelings skew towards on wanting to stay on. Duhz... this place is like chao relax. Can just sit ard n chill..... Live on my own... shiokz... but sometimes it does get lonely... N boring i muz add since there is like a cut off time. Muahaha...
Eurotrip coming. Looking forward to it but yet not as well coz i know the one n half months will simply zoom by. N soon it will b time to jet back to the sunny place. Just a random thot... how would i survive if i would to travel alone???
So many things to do... But first i need to recharge n KOON!
Thanks to all who showed concern the past few days where i'm grumpy... moody... sian... *hugz* love u all.
AND I HAD A MARVELOUS TIME IN LONDON! tt'll b up next. :)

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Monday, May 29, 2006

in one of those moods once again....
WHY??? HOW???
All visible traces have been removed. But u know it doesn't work.
N fark... presentation tml n not prepared. No mood. Tired xia.

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

FAT! FAT! FAT!
Fats r spewing out. Sighz.
Dun say i'm not fat coz i am.
I swear i'm going on a DIET.
Shall not wait for the fats to melt away... Muahaha...

Give u a peeks @ fatty bombom me.

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Roadtripping is over n done with. Dunno wat to feel towards the weekend trip... Glad to meet up with Chris again... Happening once again lorz... LOL. N glad to meet up with jy n kx.
Thanks to all of them for housing me & friends. :) I'm heading off to London! OMG... I'm soooo excited... SOOOO EXCITED. Can meet up with everyone in London... jo, xue, qi (havent arranged.. hmmm), kev, zl, jesse, alex, jinxy, new found scotland mates (shall see)... who else there? hmmm... london machiam melting pot. Keke... All the london talking just takes the gloom away... haha... First jo n her shopping... make me so gian to shop lah... WHY MY MUMMY NEVER GIVE ME PERMISSION TO SPEND N SHOP??? *sobz* Hurh hurh... why do i think our sightseeing iternary will give way to more shoooping n feasting. Nvm... our iternary stands @ sightseeing in the morning... tea... then a lil shopping... 3-in1... Brillant hor. Haha... Let's see... got cambridge with the guys to meet cl i think... then got nice nice food... keke... alex n chicken rice talk is making me hungry... sighz... n MoS. wooohoo... i need more days in london!!!!! Haiz... but super ex place... Air tix to n fro also ex... sighz... super sch n their highly flexible timetable... make me buai sai book my air tix... But watever it is... i'm getting my ass to the happening london. N to my new camera. Keke...

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Thursday, May 18, 2006

Suddenly all HAPPY AGAIN! Why? Presentation pushed forward by a day... that means... i can catch both my dearies for at least a day! *excited* For now i shall keep my fingers cross that everything goes rite. Tml after class i shall book the tix. Woohoo... Pls let something tt would cheer me up come thru... pretty pls...

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sighz.... 1 disappointment confirmed.
No more portugal. :s Plans screwed up. stupid school. Now I can afford a travel slot on 1st to 5th June. But where to???
N maybe no more kingdom of glass. 3 places in 2 n a half days including driving... Nah...
Bus card cock up.
Haiz. Sianz.
Projects to rush.
Books to read. A 444 page book which i think need to read half... so tt's 222 pages n compendium of abot 150 double sided pages n it's printed with 2 pages per side... so... 150*2*2=600 pages n another text with 950 pages n had only 4 lectures n 1 lecture note. *faintz*

I am the source of problemz.

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

I WANT TO INTERN AT PORSCHE!!!!
But cannot... I on exchange. Haiz... If i can apply n get that intern... i gladly fly back to do internship lorz... Muahahaha...
Intern there = closer to my road to tai-tai-dom.

courtesy of their website.
Haiz... NEVER MIND... better internship opportunities will come. Best is got overseas internship. Hahaha... Anywhere also can. Hahaha...
Got my friends fix. *gleams* It just makes me happy talking to my dearest friends... just crapping abt anything. HAPPY.
N talking to amber makes me miss SOB level 5... my 2nd home for a period of time last yr.. Hahaha... miss those days... hmm... but this isn't invitation for sai... Muahaha...

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WTH... Am I no longer a SMU student???
CANNOT ACCESS OASIS. WTH....

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No. 2 thing that cheer me up for the day... OMG... 1 full day of pia-ing for the poster presentation paid off.. Muahaha... I love the grading manz. Haha...
Credits:
Emz for drawing the world map.
TY my partner-in-crime who worked while i was belgium-ing
rest of my group.

But still sad... Portugal might haf to go... so is london... so is france n spain. Blehz.

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Monday, May 15, 2006

.s.i.c.k.
miserable shit.
hate this feeling.
*whines & sulks*
in need of friend's therapy.
i want to london.

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

Woke up late n so din go for class on friday... N it made the weekend seem so nice n long. Days without classes here really feels like weekends everyday.
N somehow our 'feel-like-cooking' mode appeared... N *poof* we were cooking, baking n of coz eating. Muahahaha....
Started with the durian which we bought from the Asian bus where we did our project on. 78SEK for that. More than $10 for a durian. Go back singapore can eat until shiok lorz... but nonetheless it was damn shiok. Sweet n soft meat. *slurps*

With our filled stomach, flour, butter, sugar became our plaything. BAKING TIME! First up.. banana bread.

N the 'mama' couldn't curb her need to play with flour... N she headed on to baking corn bread... N after all the baking was done... she had to make real food... N so u see in the oven... bread on top n baked potato n mushroom below.

in my urge to drink soup... i made a pot of it... Muahahha....

My failed cycling trip (ahem... thanks to lazy bums.) saw me playing with more flour... n experimenting with pancakes. Haha...

U TELL ME HOW NOT TO GROW FAT?
I wonder if i'll haf the urge to cook n bake in singapore. Hmm...

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I'M GROWING FAT!
See myself i feel disguisted. Want to shop also dun feel like shopping.
Haiz...
I always thot having BFs make me fat... now no BF already FAT. Get BF lagi FAT.. Wait... FAT liaoz get wat BF?
*pengz*
and guess wat... i'm off to cut the bread tt we made... *faintz*

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Friday, May 12, 2006

The days are drawing close.
The dream is coming to an end.
I can see the curtains unfolding.
Unfolding to unveil the harsh reality.
This holiday is nearing its end.
It's time to go home.
It's time to start using the brains.
It's time to start planning.
What happens when I get back?
Is everything going to be as I left it?
Some things have and will changed.
Am I part of the change?
Or just the watcher of change?
What's going to happen from here on?
So many things to think about.
Or am I just worrying myself unnecessarily?
Think.
Modules for next sem
Double major
Internship preferably overseas
Job
$$$ supply, i'm addicted to travelling. Needs $$$ & travel mates
.

I so want to jet off to London to find lizard & xue. Even 1 day also i shiok. 1 full day of fun is all i need to cure this melancholy self of mine.
London I want.
Singapore I dun want.
Friends in Singapore I want. Come here & lead the carefree life. keke...

Sorry for the bombardment of posts. I'm finally not jetsetting & I overslept n missed some guest lecture so got some time on hand.

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i heart the streets of edinburgh & the bright blue sky.

i heart edinburgh by day even more when it's nice n sunny

i heart edinburgh by nite

i heart the sea. the water

i heart waterfalls

i heart rainbows. it's a lil faint but try to spot it... it was a pretty background with the bridge.

i heart the green pastures n nature

i heart sunset

i heart the sun. the big round sun of europe which is so close to the horizon

i heart the white snow. n how much i miss winter n the snow.

i heart my scotland travelling buddy. sorry my photography skill a bit the bad.

i heart scotland. edinburgh. highlands.lowlands.skye.

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COPENHAGEN part 2
Let pictures do the talking

wat used to be the stock exchange building. as per a stranger

SMS!!!! really is SMS (dun understand tis lingo rite???)
the most talked about !@#$%^&*() mermaid. copenhagen & the mermaid. n knowing very well... we just had to go to take a picture with the most talked about icon. and why? coz we're damn tourists n just to prove that we've been there... Hurh hurh. the video we made is hilarious... too bad... utubing it is too troublesome...

this place interested us soooo much more... chao ghetto... but i like... it's a really interesting place...

this is where u get stuff where u can receive capital punishment for. it's ironic coz there are actually police patrolling the area. so r those stuff legal??? u just begin to wonder... social responsibility harh? or show to prove that tax payers money are put to use???

rosenburg slot. gosh... europe are filled with nothing but slots... castles. i also want one... nvm... i shall continue building my sandCASTLES in the air... hohoho...

marble church. inside is hmm... okie... not that fantastic as compared to the million other churches i've seen.

interesting car outside the church

the best travelling buds ever! with the fountain, palace n bit of the marble church as backdrop.

our favourite food. fransk hotdog... woooohooo... suasage wrapped with bacon. total gluts @ copenhagen. first had my macs breakfast, then had my long craved KFC, chinese take away, nice brownie cookies, some super nice choc drink. OMG fat liaoz lah... n as i blog i'm munching on my pasta dinner... carbo n more carbo... my fats r spilling out... as evident of some fotos which i will duly hide.

us & the singaporean-dans... missing 3 of them though.

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Done with my tripping for now. Time to rest. N time to update this neglected place.

so i'm not done blogging about russia... but hell with it...

COPENHAGEN

started off pretty badly with me waking up only to realize that i had 15 mins to fly my ass to the bus station to catch the 3.35am bus to copenhagen. so that's my first cab ride in sweden. Muahaha... but watever it is... i got myself to copenhagen.. only to be greeted by some morning showers. blehz. but watever it is, i was looking forward to meeting chris n cowan. met this russian gal along the way... had my macdonald's breakfast with chris while we waited for mr phan to sky over before we start our touring.
First stop... why am i not surprised where our first stop was... muahaha...

Carlsburg Musuem!

never seen sooo many beer bottles lorz... how i wish i can start a display like that... *dreams* how i wish i had a house n $$$ enough to start a display of beer bottles, alcohol bottles, perfume bottles n shot glasses from round the world...

and as part of the admission fee we got 2 glasses of free beer. Keke... which is THE reason we went to the musuem. Muahaha... n beer in the afternoon on relatively empty stomache...

After 1 glass...

After 2 glasses... and guai kia resisted all temptations from us n went to sch...
so both of us walked around...

and blogger is not cooperating with my photos... yawnz...

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Thursday, May 04, 2006

it's a lil funny when pple get into their strange moods. it's just this overcasted feeling where u can't pinpoint where the root of this feeling came from. it just sets u in this i-dun-feel-like-doing-anything mood.
got heaps of work to do before i leave for belgium tml. excited but yet the sian-ness downs the excitement level by quite a bit. but i'm sure it'll b fun. at least i get to see another familiar face though i just met some friends. n i can't wait for thailand trip (onz rite???) but it'll b nice to see the gals here. blehz.
jo's coming. yippie. n if all goes rite... will get to see xue.
n jia... JIAYOU so i can fly to paris, pass u nice belgium chocs n see u europe.
So many things to do... running out of time... haiz. prolly not travelling for awhile till europe trip comes... but eurotrip plan isn't out... DIEz... n dunno who to travel with... sighz. n thou has to plan my mum's travel iternary. *pengz* i only know how to book hostels not hotels.
so much work to do n i'm ranting here. Geez... maybe i should just pop by that bbq they haf... haiz...

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

.coincidence.

one day u wake up from ya sleep. appalled. it's a dream that's out of the blue. it wouldn't have been sometime back but now it just leaves me perturbed. why the reappearance in my dream? Dreams are the reflection of our daylight thoughts.. ain't they? Then how come the person of my dream is back? Banishment out of my world n my thoughts have been melted out a long while ago. Why the reappearance?
out of boredom u run thru the calendar of your fone deleting past reminders u left on the calendar. then u stumble upon a calendar note. u check the month n realize it's may. wat a conincidence. may 2005 vs may 2006. so much has changed. memories n thots just flow by.
and next on ya ipod, u hear the sound of water splashing. instantly u know the song being randomly played. coincidence once again. it was just a random song n it means nothing. u try hard to convince yourself on that but somehow it's just so hard to tackle that mind of yours. u know it's just another song to the ipod n others but u know that the song holds loads of meaning. as the lyrics come blasting thru the earphones, you could almost hear the echos of the voice explaining the song to you n how it was showed certain feelings.
the following day u hear from ya mum that ya cousins r throwing a birthday party. only goes to confirm another passing of a year. n more private memories just replays. coincidence.
tt's probably how i remember certain date.
and i know the past is back to haunt.
then u just wish u had ya good friends ard u.
just sit ard by the beach
talking about anything to talk ya mind off stuff
or simply just sit ard n enjoy the silence of the night - a knowledgable silence.
if u know wat i'm writing about. good for you. if not, it's just a bunch of rattlings. maybe u think u know wat i'm writing but chances r that u dun really know. so why do i even bother writing this when u might not even understand wat i'm talking about? my space... my outlet for rattlings n rantings... outlet for all the angst.

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Monday, May 01, 2006

this trip isn't meant to be... Everything started off on the wrong foot...
First... I woke up LATE... n ran the high possibility of missing my overnight bus to copenhagen. Woke up 15 mins before the departure time... Horrors of horrors... the only word in my head was F***. Wellz... Being NEW to the cab industry in Sweden... had to search online for the cab number... And so that was the first cab that i've taken... Costed me 80 SEK. Haiz.... And in the rush... I think i left some stuff out... Oh wellz...
Only consolation was that i got my arse to copenhagen... N had a whacky good time with the babe n the hunk. I MISS THAT 2 DAYS!!! Yippie... But as things had to go against me... My voice died on me...which pretty much is equivalent to me falling sick. So the overnight at Stansted airport was kinda miserable... n so was the next day at Edinburgh. But nonetheless Edinburgh is how chio. Beyond any words can describe. (HEY... I GOT PRAISE PLACES ONE HOR *directs to christine n cowan*) I want to go back to Scotland again but when only when i earn in pounds. Everything is numerically cheap in Scotland... But it's this one symbol £ which just turns u off... (ironically £ is shift 3 on the keyboard here... just like how its exchange rate to S$).
Mishap no 3 - I DELETED MY PHOTOS w/o getting them uploaded. ARGHHHH... SOMEONE PLS TELL ME IS THERE ANYWAY OF RETRIEVING MY PIX. I would be eternally grateful. Some smart me happily uploaded my pix to my ipod... but wat i din realize is that some 100 odd blardy chio pix were not uploaded... N i happily deleted them off... *sobz sobz* Damn miserable lah.... Haiz... It's the chio-est pix for this 3 day trip...HAIZ (to many millions).
I miss my home-away-from-home... blehz...
And y am i blogging??? Coz there is nothing to do on this holy island which strictly follows n is ruled by the church... N thus Sunday the Sabbath... REST DAY! *pengz*

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