life's a one way road

Thursday, April 26, 2007

*chants*
OVERSEAS!
*chants*
flew over land & sea... hehe... & midnight flights r no fun... coz they won't let u sleep till 2am... like after they r done with their customer service... & they wake u up at 5am to continue their customer service.. so u effectively sleep for 3 hours. BOO... so much for paying the extra for the added value service & in-flight entertatinment... BOOHOO... i watched NO single movie on board coz I was so tired after the last day of work that i just wished the air stewardess would turn off the lights. Haha....
Anw.. yesterday was last day of work. I resigned! wahaha... moving to a new place when i'm back from my holiday. Hehe...
Just want to rest well these few days while i'm out.. but this doesn't really seem like a resting place.. hmmm...
For now.. i've opted to camp @ home to sleep first...
& i must say... wat happen to the sq gals... QC machiam fail one... haiz.........................

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Sunday, April 22, 2007

it's time to sort out my stuff...
sort out my photos...
& maybe sort out my life.
i feel less & less...
maybe i'm turning into a workaholic

sun sets @ 10:36 AM

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Saturday, April 21, 2007

it's been a messy situation of late.
thank goodness most of it has been sort out.
i'm moving.
not too sure if i'm going to enjoy the move..
i just hope that something good is going to come out of it.
i guess it's going to be...
welcome to the true mad banking world.
blehz...
all the best to all job seekers out there.

sun sets @ 9:32 PM

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Wednesday, April 18, 2007

in the transition period of my life.
at the crossroads of life too.
but well well...
ORQ is NICE...

omg... i'm so drained from work... that i just want to go sleep now... blehz.. i dun even haf the energy to watch my shows...
I'm beginning to wonder how i survived the past months...

sun sets @ 10:49 PM

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

in 1 hour...
marks the start of my last paper
marks the end of the rat race for the paper
marks the last of my formal education
marks the start of my in between life
marks the start of transition
marks the start of me being an undisclosed statistic of my sch
cheers to this paper
a paper which i haf simply no mood to study for

sun sets @ 12:16 PM

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Friday, April 13, 2007

so screwed for exams. i need to do well to up my GPA but yet my mind is not cooperating.
currently, i'm more interested in the job hunt. Blehz.. Afterall, that's wat i've been working (so hard) for all these past 4 years. To land myself a relatively decent job.
But that in itself is an irony.

what is a relatively decent job?
one that fulfills your expectation, one that just gives the perfect match or one that pays well?
a job that fulfills all 3 criterias is most prob the ideal job... but how many of us actually land that ideal job?
Most of the time, we have to make a choice. a choice btw passion vs money.
Passion.
that's wat many fresh grads and veterans in the working world will say, citing the fact that we're still young. Yes i agree... but the first job is going to determine pretty much ya career path. Changes...horizontal changes are possible but it's going ot be a tough one where rejections r high... pay cuts are almost a yes. Yes we fresh grads have tons of passion... but when u r placed with a scenerio where most of your friends have decided to join the high paying industry ie the banks ... whehter out of passion or the money... u start to waiver n feel that passion is not going to bring u far. it's not going to let u lead the life that u eye and crave for... afterall friends are the next biggest things in our lives & like it or not... they make a huge impact on our lives.
Money.
Who doesn't want money. At least for now.. money is the gateway to almost anything. a house. a car. material good. Much as we can try to convince ourselves that all these doesn't really matter... it's a fact of life that one day... all of us will need our own roof over our heads. and that in itself is going be a big load & burden to us. I still can't decide if it's a sad thing that we've been brought up with the value of owning our own homes.
Passion vs Money. Or many Passion & Money.
What if the passion runs dry or gets drained off by the intense struggle to keep the passion that brings in the money... does it mean money doesn't flow in as well...

It's the crossroads of life once again.
Try for something with the safety net or something more adventurous.
Try for something that pays well or something that might or might not pay well.
Try for the excitment that the job brings u or the money.

It's a choice to make.
I just wished all the options are laid out in front of me... at least i won't haf trouble choosing... the trouble comes when the options comes, in drips n draps.

sun sets @ 2:15 PM

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Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Made a really happy gal today (technically yesterday but since i've yet to sleep.. it shall be today)
Got a surprise delivery to my house.
Lucky got pple at home to receive it for me coz pig me somehow drifted off into her nap land despite waking up not too long ago. I vaguely remember hearing the door bell ring.. but oh well.. Wahahaha... Sleep got the better of me.
So happy.
More duckies to my collection.
Thanks dear! XOXO
Wheee....

Back to trying to mug... Blehz.. in the very ORD mood...
& doesn't help that work is piling in the office... Blehz.

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Monday, April 09, 2007

it's time to start the job hunt. Blehz.
I just wish a decent paying job, say min 2.5K job lands on my lap like soon.
So at least i can end this job. Stop all the uncertain n move on with my life.
I give up trying to study for my last exam coz it seems so redundant.
Nothing seems vaguely relevant.
sighz.

sun sets @ 1:58 AM

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Thursday, April 05, 2007

if i had a chance to go for exchange again...
i would still pick the same place. stayed in the same place.
BUT the only diff would be...
i'm going there for myself.
& not going there to run away n seek refuge from this tiny island
& if i could i wouldn't mind going there with someone i know or even someone new...
someone more friendly...someone more like me...
any of the facis, one brainer, or maybe someone who doesn't mind doing silly things or trying something new.
then again.. my education life in this wonderful uni which has given me much opportunities to travel is kinda over.
i guess... days of exchange will not come by as easily anymore.
if i could... i would turn back the days of my uni life.
maybe as auntie c said, i've changed,,, after all she's been in most of my education life (in relative terms to the other profs)
i see where she's coming from n i see why she's seen the change.
well even i do...
some pple really do impact your life that much prolly without them realizing...
but when it's over n when u finally pick yourself up once again
that's wat really matters.
Somehow though i whine n curse n bitch abt auntie as most of us would, in a way, she alwiz means well... n she's alwiz going to be that same auntie. Hahaha... I'm glad that she's been my prof. N i must say she's been one of the better profs ard.... one of the profs who has made going to class less miserable...
maybe some other day after thy exam... i shall reflect on my uni life...

sun sets @ 12:00 PM

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OMGZ
woke up to auntie c's voice.
i thot i won't hear anything from her...
but she had to call..
OMGz
wat can i say... 1st sem i din pick her fone, final sem she finally got thru.
haha...
nice to hear a compliment from her.
i guess i've changed for the better.

sun sets @ 10:29 AM

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Trust is a word that doesn't seem to exist in my vocabulary.
Or at least it seems to disappear bit by bit from my vocabulary.
i guess defences do come up once in awhile...
& i guess till then....

sun sets @ 1:33 AM

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Wednesday, April 04, 2007

This is quite hilarious.
project group with 2 versions of report... one mailed to all.. the other mailed to the final person editing n printing.
WHY?
coz of ONE person & ONE sensitive para
sensitive para to gently slam the ONE person.... nothing wrong in my opinion since it's an evaluation section.

sun sets @ 2:26 AM

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

OH YEAH!
The FILE FOR GRAD button has appeared on my browser.
N guess what.
I HIT IT!
Wheee...
And after hitting it... i realize i forgot to go in n hit off that i've completed comm service... or do i even need to check that off????
Hmmm...
Watever lah...
File for grad! Comm svc report ok-ed. Now just left my intern report.
Wheeeee....
But damn it...
I thot this week si going to be a utter slack week. but i'm soo wrong.
My to-do list is still growing.... Blehz.

sun sets @ 2:55 PM

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