life's a one way road

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

it's one of those days when this thing called "sian" hits u... the worst part is u seem to know why u are sian but yet on the other hand u seem to not be able to pinpoint that watever seems to be the direct cause of ya sian-ness.... it's just one of those days... prolly it's me getting old... n getting grouchy from the lack of slp... 12 hrs of slp in 3 days... n it's lagi sian that chilling out session is cancelled today... Grrrz... Nvm... after exam we'll go chiong.. Muahaha... Right? Yes? No?
Dun feel like mugging since my brain is not receptive to anything i'm reading... Apparently my brain doesn't seem so receptive nowadays... It's like dead... or stagnant... dormant... just like the person...and neither do i feel like writing... but then i'm writing this... which will be of crap... prolly just a way of trying of de-sianizing... Haha...
Think i've become a homely gal of late. Or rather this term i feel more like a student.... Staying in sch to mug (yes, ahao shar mugging in sch), spending more time in sch for watever reason, going home after sch... Yes... so unlike last term. I miss a lil of my last term's lifestyle though... But nowadays i'm just too lazy to find pple to go out with me... N i'm lazy to go out with my stuff... starting to fell a lil mountain tortoise... Time to start going out again...

Topic of the day in our mugging gsr: kinds of guys... which was triggered off from how boring guys can be esp when they give monosyllabic ans rather than ans that can involve this word "conversation"... seems like there's been an evolution in the meaning of the word conversation in the eyes of guys. And to the guys reading this blog... Do not ask us to tell or rather teach u wat to say in response to wat we say... coz if we do... 1) it won't be YOUR response which is the very reason of having a conversation: to find out abt wat u think of something, 2) we might as well just talk to ourselves... 自问自答... 3) this is no model ans to wat we say... just that giving mono ans irritate the shit out of us... it's like after ya response wat should i reply? okie... back to wat i wanted to say...(and if u duno wat i'm talking abt... there r prolly only 2 reasons: 1) u r not part of the grp 2) u r beyond hope... okie maybe there's 3... which is i'm not making any sense)
So we were complaining that there ain't enough bad guys ard anymore.. or rather suddenly all the guys are turning towards domestication n settling down. It's kinda ironic how the craving for bad boys are on... when awhile back we've all been complaining that there are no good guys ard... I guess... the kind of guys u crave for is partly affected by the guy u r with now/ the guy u want/ the guys u used to date/ the r'ships u see froom ya friends/ yaself/ ya heart/ ya stage in life... n many more... Anw... generalizing guys.. there are only 2 kinds of guys to haf as bf: the husband material kind which would generally be the boring (with part mention to wat's above), stable, steady kinds... or the fling, not-so-serious(in terms of settling down), play play kind of relationship. - end of topic of the day-
Seems like all the desirable guys are all taken... Sighz... haha... it's been a while since i've met a 会做人 or rather more gentlemanly guy. And so wat did a guy do to make me say that? Coz today i sneezed in class n my nose attempted to run... and suddenly this guy sititng next to me just asked if i needed tissue.. Simple thing but u dun see that ard nowadays... nothing big but i thot it was nice of him. Good for his gf to haf such a caring guy. Haha...
Been seeing n hearing abt how nice bfs have been to their gfs for their bday... like how they take so much efforts to surprise their gals with a surprise bday party or by all the sweet things.. And once again i see that in action. Yes... it's like how sweet n touching... *jealous* Haha... *questions myself* when's it going to my turn to experience such sweetness n romance n surprise? Muahaha... should add "again" to the above qn... Had my one chance to experience it the last v-day... *thinks of more to crap abt*
Anw... been thinking abt something... to try or not to try? If u haf failed before n u see no possibilities of succeeding and everything pts towards failure, would u still go for wat u want? would u still try knowing that 99% chance of failure n 1% chance of success n failure would only brings u unhappines?
Shall continue to ponder... over my texts... Haha....

sun sets @ 9:00 PM

Comments:

IMHO, 1% chance is gd enuff, especially if its something worth it. Hey, stop deliberating and grab the chance man!

# posted by

Justin : 1:02 AM

Haha... Thanks! But wat if the chance is less than 1% and u see lots of obstacles along the way?

# posted by

sunshine gal : 1:23 PM

Erm, no pain no gain? Well, the more difficult it is to attain something, the more you'll treasure it I guess.

But if really so difficult, then you have to ask yourself whether its worth the effort or not.

# posted by

Justin : 3:26 PM

I met a even more desirable classmate.. I asked for a tissue so he gave me one from a 'new' packet. I notice that he wipes his mouth after drinking with a handkerchief so I asked him why he carries a packet of tissue around when he uses the handkercheif? He replied," It is for those around me that needs it."

I am IMPRESSED

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Anonymous : 11:05 PM