This is my closing entry for the year of 2005. (shall blog now in case the guys r heading over to my place tonite)
The entry that would see the past year.
The entry that would make a close to the roller-coaster 2005.
The entry that would officially close another chapter in my life.
The past year has seen me in all states of emotions.
A very blissful and happy girl was spotted at the start of the year... A girl who felt love existed once again... a girl who never felt so lucky n blessed with her loved one... a girl who did anything for the guy she loved... a girl who had her patience level upped by many folds... a girl that lil friends saw of her... a girl who felt that he was the guy she wanted to spend the rest of her life with...
The blissfulness n happiness turned to a feeling that made it hard to pen... blissfulness n happiness remained BUT pain n misery n troubles started to come. Troubles which i endured alone till it no longer could be contained... Decisions had to be made which saw me making it alone. I'm sorry that i made the decision alone instead of doing it together but yet he stood by me all the way... which i'm eternally grateful to you coz i know u din haf to but u did. Everything about us will remain in a beautiful part of my memory which i'll keep for life. I'm just praying that it won't haunt me (us if u should ever know of it) in any future.
The summer approached and the downfall just came in... Went for SAIL which brought me wonderful memories but that was prolly the end of us. It only goes to say that we ain't meant to be... though till today i'm still left baffled at why things din work out.
So the summer saw a self-destrustive me...
a summer where i was getting wasted...
BUT yet it was a summer that saw me getting involved in sch events...
a summer that saw me making many new friends...
a summer that saw the dawn of a beautiful group in SMU... SK 5+1... a blessing in my life
a summer that made me see who my friends were...
a summer that has many beautiful memories installed for me.
It was a hard summer nonetheless... and i'm ever thankful to ALL my friends who stood by me... friends who were alwiz there for me...
friends who listen to me whine...
friends who saw me cry often too much...
friends who listened n kept my secrets...
friends who walked a long way with me... to a me that is more emotionally stable now...
this summer too saw a deep treasure box being dug out n revealled. It's a summer that i can't just put down in words... a summer where i learnt and discovered soo much... discover so much about other pple n self.
Well of coz the term started with me still being messed up... but thank god for everyone ard me, i got by the term w/o any Cs. Haha... As the term drew to a close, the year comes to a close too... and i'm closer to leaving. It's a year of mixed feelings. But i'm still glad for this year... coz i've grown... n grown older too... i can officially watch RA shows... Muahaha...
To sum it all my only conclusion: this hasn't been the best year for me.
BUT i still haf a whole load of pple to extend my thanks out to...
SK 5+1, section 7 facis whom i spent almost my whole summer with, SAIL pple, biz camp org comm & facis & freshies, rit & sze min, suiying, chris, chrissy, paul, ivan, dave, ken, lip, kev, jo, sc, xue, jm, liping, shan and everyone else who've touched my life in one way or another this year. *hugz*
