Been having sleepless nights of late... nites where i just lay in bed... an empty mind but i can't seem to shut my whole system down to sleep... some nites where i just think... some nites where i just play the list of memorable songs on my itunes... nites where i run thru the photos in my iphoto... run n rerun the slideshow tt i've made... some nites where memories just flash thru my memory like i'm watching a movie... some nites where i just lay there n think n wonder... just sleepless nitez... i'm so tired... it's draining me off my energy n making me feel very depressive...
I know... feelings have all become meaningless... but feelings dun just disappear over nite... i-miss-yous n i-love-yous haf become ptless coz they are nothing but words tt hold no value n importance... even as friend i'm of no value n importance... coz simple things r not being remembered or bothered... wat happen to the promise made back then... a promise of eternity... a promise to shelter me from the obstacles tt come along... it's all gone... overnight... promises r made to be fulfilled n not broken... some things r unknowing commitments tt haf been made.. committments to each other... committments to try n not expect... Somehow i feel that feelings have become meaningless... dates have become insignificant... memories n trials haf become nothing but thin air...
BUT nonetheless, i still haf my friends... my friends whom i'm ever grateful for. Esp my new-found gang... it's friends tt haf kept my sanity n everything intact n in check. I duno how to thank u all for all these support... maybe u dun see it as support but i see it tt way...
on the hindsight... jazzy christmas was GOOD... Fantabulous... N next yr we'll go again... haha... N max brenners was lagi shiok... it's high inducing.... n nothing beats live music n some beer (though the duet tonite kinda suck) N supper... Muahaha... broke all my diet shit today... haha... N i think he's good looking... n the most eligible bachelor ard... haha...
Tired... blog later in the day... nitez... hopefully i can slp