life's a one way road

Monday, March 20, 2006

DIE. Less than 48hrs to churn out my exam paper. Sighz. But no mood to do. Mind clogged with shit.
Why think so much shar?!?! U know jolly well that nothing comes out of your thinking? Either u take action or let things happen? Think for wat? *continues to scold self*
Went to jog then went ice skating. Spring is coming. The ice at the rink started to melt n being soft n nuahish... the layer of water on the ice is getting more n carving of the blades on the ice makes deep marks on the ice. Which is cause of my fall. ARGH.. which has left me with a frigging big blue-black n an aching knee. I was just skating normally when my blades got caught in the grooves. Haiz. But i finally can make a half turn n fullstop. No more 360 degrees turn. N i'm in love with the sound of the blades carving into the ice. Muahaha... N i managed to skate backwards too.. Lala... Come to think of it... Ice skating is easier than blading. Let's hope my blading skills improve when i get back. I miss my blades. I miss skating at ECP... having the wind beat against ya face while i skate along n get my tan. Bleahz. For now i'll content with boring ice-skating n going round the rink. But yet it seems like this lil enjoyment of mine would haf to go with the coming of spring. Haiz.
I'm torn. Torn between wanting spring n winter. Winter is my favourite season. I scared of the cold... rather i dun like being cold especially when i'm frozen n nothing keeps me warm. But yet i love winter. I like the chill of it. I love winter clothings. All the jackets as evident from my collection of jackets back home. N wat i love most is that piling on the layers helps to hide my fats! N i won't be sweaty n all. N SNOW. I love it. Esp when everything ard is white n snowy. N pls everyone... i really like white. not coz of anyone... so pls stop giving me that look when i stray towards the white side.
On the contrary, i want spring to come. At least i will see more life everywhere. I won't haf to pile on sooo many layers. There would be more nature for me to admire n indulge in. Loving the nature that surrounds me. I never fails to awe me. Even if i'm alwiz running on the same trail. It's different everytime. Sometimes i wish i had such a perfect camera to capture exactly wat i see.
But the coming of spring sends this signal that exchange is ending. This dreamland, this carefree lifestyle is going to end, throwing me back to reality. Till now i still haven't figured if the reality that welcomes me in singapore would be pleasant one or one like the past. I still haven't figured that bit out. Though chances are that some would continue where it left off... both good n bad. Friendships continues to run. New friendships built. Friendships broken. Part of my old lifestyle would swing back in place. New lifestyle would have to be set in. Friendships from here??? Is that the end? Beats me.
Enough.
Anw seems like today's the day that everyone is planning their trips n euro trips. This somehow signals the ending of our exchange yar. So darn fast. So much for wanting to start on my paper today. Haha... For now... April is packed to the brim. May can only haf space for weekend trips for the first 3 weeks. sheesh. So many more places to go. Haiz.
Side-tracking. I think someone in my house is koping the sauces in my cupboard! My kebab sauce n mustard which i barely use seems to be fairly empty now. Hmmm... *puzzled*
Enough of shit from me. Back to churning my paper.

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