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Sunday, September 10, 2006
i am cold.
i am unfeeling.
i haf a heart made of steel.
i haf my defences up.
sometimes that's how i feel. i can be pretty emotionless. maybe not emotionless but rather a lack in the range and intensity of emotions. now that i'm back from exchange for more than a month, i dun really feel anything much. i'm kinda integrated back to the lifestyle here. sometimes i would miss europe but the feeling doesn't stay for long. i miss sweden but i only miss it for the peace n tranquility n the nature that i get there. reminiscing is good but it doesn't do much good to the system. much as i would love to be back there, there isn't a part of me that would actively seek to relive the days there. i dun bother finding ways to get back to that country or that continent, neither do i go my way to make friends with friends from the exchange country. somehow i know if i were to go back there, it's solely out of travel n maybe work but chances are slim. So i can't bother myself to even bother to think or dream about it. instead i concentrate on making my life here better. ultimately i guess this is the place i still call home. and despite all the good things other countries can offer, this is still home. But i dun deny that i would love to be overseas and seek a job that sends me abroad n i'm perfectly fine being overseas.
i guess i'm just being practical here.
similarly it's weird how i'm so not interested in guys.... not even cute meatballs. they r cute but somehow i dun go gaga over them. sometimes i wish i was like the others who can go gaga over some SGs. just be happy for the moment and bring some excitment into life. but then again it's so not meeeeee... watever lah... there's something else in guys that i'm looking for bah... wahahaha...
Pretty happy with my life now... just one thing missing.... been missing for awhile n will continue to be missing... well at least now i haf time for all my friends & all those whom i've let walk thru the doors of steel.
it's back to another week.


sun sets @ 6:14 PM

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location: sunny island
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[Sweat level]
Singapore
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Jonkoping
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[fellow stars]

[memory lane]
21st birthday
21st with my darlings
X'mas dinner 2005 with SK
Goteburg trip
Stockholm trip - under construction
Kiruna trip

[genie stop here]
:: lose weight::
:: bask in the companionship of my friends::
:: be the happy gal::
:: the love one ::
:: wisdom::
:: a new job::
:: my ideal end state of my life::


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