life's a one way road

Friday, March 30, 2007

last day of school.
last debate
last test
last presentation
last class.
but guess wat.
no feelings.
not looking forward nor feeling especially excited.
kinda disappointed with this sem...
even though i'm not totally done with it.
one more report
one more exam.

i feel like shopping
i feel like spending money
i got tons of things i want to buy
but NO MONEY to buy.

Booohoooooo....

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Thursday, March 29, 2007

sometimes i think i know why long dist relationship dun work out.
on one hand u miss the person. but yet on the other hand u r so much out of their lives. and all the nitty griity stuff that sums up.
n that makes both parties or maybe just the more affected one drained & tired.
n i guess it just goes downhill n the end of it.
my guess.
but if both survives the LDR, all will be nice n good for the years to come.

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Monday, March 26, 2007

i actually dreamt that one day i'll walk up to u... & say hi & we'll talk & somehow clear up watever that was left unsaid. i'll ask watever i wanted to ask.... i say watever i wanted to say... without having to hold back like i used to.... even if we would never talk again or be friends once again, i would just like to know what happened... even if i had to hear the nasty truth. i'd rather. it was that simple but yet things turned out a mess.
it's strange to haf such a dream... after so long.

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Music & Lyrics.
OMG.
Beautiful show.
The songs are damn good.
Damn catchy.
In love with this song... like soooo in love with it.

Haven't caught it... pls go watch it with that special person in ya life.

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Saturday, March 24, 2007

early sat morning & i'm in schoooollllllllll............omgggggggggggggggggggggg
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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Friday, March 23, 2007

one done! the biggest presentation of the term is over. Wheee... Feels so free...
1 more training session to conduct.
1 more stoopid debate
1 more report
1 more test
1 more exam....
and the end that i've been waiting for....
wheee...
liberation for now.
till i get the nags to need to find a job... hehe

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when it's not ya day... it's really not your day.
well first... prep for ps presentation has been a bitch.
1) we couldn't find the best way to present the main part of the project
2) the webbies were messy & not user friendly.
That's like our project in & out.. ALL WRONG.
So wat i thot could be a 2 hour meeting saw me not going to work & trying to iron all those up... & so another day into PS. Blehz. i was determined to make it work out... afterall it was somewhat like my lil brainchild when i discovered the way to link & scope it...
then came the designing & planning which i must say i truly enjoyed. (sidenoting.. i think i enjoy doing all these stuff which many would call shit... all the designing & nitty gritty stuff that u haf to build from scratch.) the whole conceptualizing of the idea. then it can the pain of trying to translate this concept to the real thing. Pain pain pain. Thank goodness for the IT geniuses in my group.. duhz.. we had 3 IS students. And so... tada... all the designing of the system & coding & i dunno who string of abcdegf was painstakingly done by dear groupie. Thanks babe. Esp since working with a group of gals isn't the easiest of task... how layout is impt... how it's been changed over n over again.
& then it came to putting it into the 25% (or is it 20%) presentation. And pls... who said projects with no reports r easy. U R WRONG. MAJORLY WRONG. Reports u can type n convey ya ideas n cover ya asses via the report. BUT when ya grades depend on the presentation... u just haf to get it right. N i mean get EVERYTHING RIGHT. U get stunned on the spot & u know that's pretty much THE END.
Anw just glad everything has fallen in placet after spending the afternoon cracking my brain & finally getting all to agree with me :P Now i'm just worried one of us will cock up the presentation... esp the speech.. somehow not all of us are confident... similarly i feel myself not being confident about this brain child... Somemore how the way the presentation go is not to wat i had visualized. But it's still all good i guess...
just hafing butterflies in my tummy... darn..
& back to y it isn't my day...
1) PS (biggest boo boo)
2) T&D test ( easy but i boo boo it)
3) came home & had internet trouble for a good 45 mins.
4) the final PS slides & webbies refuse to cooperate with me.. hope it's just my comps
5) my shot glass from amsterdam was knocked over & shattered :(
6)} majorly pissed off by someone who said that 'should be more humane & go back n rest. & shouldn't fuss over the nitty gritty' when it was only 815 n finetuning n revamping of the webbie was almost essential
6) i can't fall asleep though i need the sleep... So I shall attempt to try again...

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

a project is as good as the strength of the team & their belief in it.
PERIOD.
sick of giving in all the time to pple's limited schedule.
sick of how some pple just cant set aside time for the last meeting.
sick of the pple who gets graded the same for the extra effort u put in.
i dun see the effort from these pple. that's wat's the most sickening.

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time to plan for my travel.
wahahaha...
though the main purpose of this trip is to visit...
but i'm thinking hard if i should travel out.
hmmm...
travel to other parts of chinaaa..
alone? with someone/someones?
travelling alone will be a nice self reflection time.
travelling with others is gonna be fun & obviously safer.
but for now...i shall hush hush should i haf travel alone plans.
despite being to europe & travelling at times alone, i think zeee mother will haf to something to say to a asia travel alone.

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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

it's strange how i alwiz seem to have blood dripping kinds of dreams after getting my teeth plucked out... or any of these traumatic experiences where blood is invoilved. sucks. n this isn't the first time i dream that all my teeth are shaky and are falling out. die. is this a sign???

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the bugger that has been a pain in the mouth is finally off my gums.
thank goodness no more wisdom tooth.
darn... had 3... so my wisdom is like wat... 3/4 out of others.
haha...
and that bugger is one kind huge & long & sharp. OMG. no wonder it has been such a pain.
*sneeze*
rainfall of bloody sneeze. wahaha....

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i simply cannot stand it when pple have to do ppt & produce substandard slides.
if u cant design a new template then i would rather u just use the ones provided by microsoft.
even if 2 words have to appear in the slide, do something about it. such that it doesn't seem like a skinny thing in the middle of the screen. OMG.
can't do it... scream for help. i'm sure someone who can do it will do a much better job.
sighz.
standards too high? dun think so since the slides i do ain't the nicest or the prettiest or the most professional. but at least it looks decent to get on the screen.
haiz.
n why is it that i alwiz seem to be doing the ppt. omg. hate the training background but too lazy to think of one... so i just modified. hahaha.... quite pleased with it now... at lesat a lot better than wat i had previously.
*gleams*

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Sunday, March 18, 2007

down.
spent the whole of yesterday in sch... 6 hours of gruelling project meeting followed by another 2 and half hours tense one... and the day started @ 10 this morning... Sunday in sch... 4 hours for training meeting & another 4 hours for selection meeting. sucks. and there goes my weekend.
burnt, & feeling burnt out.
but i'm enjoying all these projects coz they are so hands-on and it's something u do from scratch.. scoping everything and all... and the diversity that a single project and the different dimensions that you are required to think about... i enjoy all these processes & designing them. I'm starting to wonder if i would have done better in IS. oh well.....
Just feels so empty now. like i'm a walking shell.
i just want to lie in love's arms & be cuddled.
bleh

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Saturday, March 17, 2007

thot i'll be coming early tonite as it is the usual on-the-dot-leave-office thing every friday.
it was very different tonite.
the morality was low. but the company for the shift was good. and so this saw us gathering ard chit chatting. for once i wouldn't say that this was a total waste of time. not coz i part took in it but for once i felt the genuinity in what my fellow colleagues had to say. it was funny how it all took place. itt started off with 2 depratment graveyard shift pple feeling the lack in momentum to work and gathering ard to chit chat with 2 later shift pple hunting diff level of office for food. N discovering the many extra bottles of wine left over from the evening drinking session. N so... we hunted the wines down... and so 3 of us shared almost 2 bottles of wine. hahaha.. and as usual drinks come along iwht talk & the increasing amoount of alcohol brought along the level of barrier we had for each other. it;s funny how the wine just borught down the 'resentment' of one to alomost zero as we shared our views with each other. views of life, family, work. I share similar experiences with one of them and similar views but yet its nice to hear the other views and be discussing things that we would have never discussed before esp about work. I dun regret staying back to talk to these ' seniors'. afterall they've been in this workforce much longer than i do... they haf their familes and intending to start one... n me being or rather abt to be freesh in the market.. it's a refreshing thot to combine my own beliefs, my experience in this work place and hear what they haf to say. n similarly knowing that i dun differ very far off from them. not that i'm being an auntie but i feel it's a preparation on my part to know and expect in my future work environment and how it differs so vastly from what i've been educated to think about.
in a way, though i would have preferred to come home n indulge in my comp & in my bed, i'm glad i stayed on and talk to them. I hear grouces. i hear different points of view. I hear about things that i've learnt recently in my courses and how true they are. I learn to appreciate n be glad n thankful that i stuck to my decision to take on my second major. To me, they were initially taken as a means of heightening my grades and partly interest, but now i dun feel that way. I'm glad that i took this course up as i feel that i has shaped a lot of my views n thinking and it has some way or another preparred me for the harsh facts and reality of life. And tonite, I learnt that I've gained another true friend.. or maybe 2... but at least that 1 is for sure. Much as I dun exactly like what i do, i've taken away a lot with this job. Not the skill sets but the mindset. the learnings. I'm indeed bless & thankful for these 2 shi jies. Though i muz admit, i miss out one my usual dose tonite. :( sorry DBC for making u wait up.
and well if not for the strange thing that happened n make us leave our office, we'll still prolly be there talking though the effects of the alcohol has worn out.
:)

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Friday, March 16, 2007

what to blog about?
i'm at this screen coz i dunno what to do while the rest of the groups are debating.
i'm sleepy.. maybe no longer after the coffee...
but i'm stoned and my mind is a blank.
Blehz.

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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

since i can't fall asleep... i started blog surfing.
hahaha... saw a friend's blog...
and i saw KIRUNA's pix.
just reminds me of us last year this time in kiruna.
the only diff is that we were a tad luckier to see the northern lights
but bassically everything else is like the same.
minus ice hotel which changes every year.
I want to go back there for my honeymoon... Hahahaa...

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Tuesday, March 13, 2007

i want to furnish my own place. Blehz.
I want my own house.

Had the darn assignment I working on now. Sucks.
Succession planning my ass lah. More like planning my road to a successful failure.
Blardly hell.

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Sunday, March 11, 2007

seems like everyone is planning for a grad trip.
so where's mine?
am i going to haf one too?
dunno??? clueless
i've made my trip to HK with my gals.
Much as turkey appeals to me.
the money, the uncertainity of the future. me getting a job is putting me off to thinking of my grad trip.
but for sure... i would to do some traveeling with some uni mates or just friends.
but where to?
sighz...
but i guess for sure... i'm headin to china...

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4 and half hours in sch of project meeting saw me KO-ing the minute i stepped home. Only to wake up to a lousy internet connection & face a nite of insomia
2 and half hours in sch today saw me KO-ing my afternoon away. OMG.
I hate being sick.

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Saturday, March 10, 2007

out of convenience went to church near school today.
one of the oldest churchest alr.
and it's still one of the most tradition.
and it still like songs that are sung to the traditional tunes. sung in english. the good old hymns.
i truly enjoyed mass today.
at least it knew wat i was singing & in the good old fashion way.
much as i appreciate the newer churches adding some 'hip' and variation into masses,
i still like it the good old fashion way. just like the days when i was young & it really feeels like a church.

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Saturday & i'm heading down for school.
4 more weeks left of being a student.

and u'll see a repeat of this post tml.

needs a new face for my blog & it's time i made us of the new features of the blog.
maybe when i'm no longer a student that i'll haf time for this.

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Friday, March 09, 2007

4 dose of medicine was not enough to get me up on my feet. so it's another day spent being unproductive. and camping at home. sucks. sighz. with my head going in circles, i can't do anything. blehz. trapped at home. so i can only daydream. booo...

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

when u r sick, groggy n drained from all the sneezing
don't you just wish for that someone to be there
to bring you to the doctor
to feed you your meddy
to tuck u into bed
to give you a hug n kiss just to make you feel better when u know it's not miracle medicine
or just be there for u to roll into his arms n whine
then again it's a wish. and not everyone has that luck to haf such a person by their side.

watched happy birthday while i nurse my germ infested body.
one of those lovey dovey show where u see the strength and maybe to some extent the meaning of love
it's worth a DVD value to be shared and watched by many but not the cinemas though...

back to hunting down my nose.

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woke up to a sore throat this morning.
now my nose has started to go against me.
my body feels like a jelly.
my head feels so heavy.
my eyes are hot n watery.
i'm sick. :(
-blogging from my trusty old fujitsu.

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Of career and work.
Listening to the radio and listening to how it's not easy being a woman nowadays as woman strive to be succeed both in careers and with their families.
Evolution of women.
Men and women both subjected to the similar evolutionary environment.
Men's role in this society pretty much remains the same. The perception of what a real men still is pretty the same as the good old days... Men are simply the breadwinners of the family. Okie... maybe some men have evolved to take on the role of househusbands but the perception of househusbands still do not go well in the eyes of our society especially our much more conservative asian culture.
Women however has made drastic changes in their social status. From being the traditionally stay-at-home-work and be a housewife, women have progressed and gained greater respect in the working world. Just count the number of iron women we have around in Singapore. And increasing education and with greater self esteem, a lot of women are beginning to survive well without men. Careers progression and the need for self actualization is THE thot on many women's mind. Getting married and starting a family has become second place or so it seems. It may not be that evident for those slightly older than me... but those of my batch seems to give me that vibes. The vibes that reads " i can survive on my own. i dun need a man by my side. my career comes first, marriage and family comes later." Honestly, no one is to be blamed for these vibes. It's a competitve society, SOL is increasing. And seriously what we really need is the moolah. Well to some sense, let's put some Maslow into place. Moolah satisfies the physchological (fark, after 4 yrs of education i still can't get this rite. damn) and the shelter need. Well... and it seemingly is a fact that this need has become harder and harder to satisfy especially with all the high expectations that everyone has.
So back to about women and being supermums. Seriously, i think it's not easy to be a supermum and it's somewhat in my opinion almost impossible. And especially so if u are working for someone. Well... it's only going ot be possible if the organisation recognises the need for work-life balance which is seriously lacking in most org cultures. But i guess everyone is realising that work-life balance is an increasing need for the org. But that alone is not going to make supermum's job any easier. And super mum having to work may not be a choice ot many. Children are getting expensive to raise. So for now super-mum seems like an ideal for me but i guess if supermum can manage her time n her priorities right, she's somewhat paving her way to supermum. Just like how many of us plan for our career path, mummies have to plan their path to supermum. Hurh hurh hurh. Maybe that's why being a woman isn't that easy afterall (n i dun mean just having to suffer the eeks of a monthly cycle of ovulatiion).
Maybe one day a separate resume and KSA should be written for being a mum. Well... maybe in my boredom someday i might draw up the job description of a mum. Wahahaha...Then again... explains low birth rates too. Hahaha...
anw... so many pple ard me planning ot get married. My pocket going to get hole-y soon lor... But oh well.. I get to indulge in pretty wedding fotos for now... hahaha...
okie.. I lost tons of my train of thot as my mind continues to churn out info on Scanlon while i attempt to blog and rant out some unsort opinions. sorry dear readers to subject u to my unorganised thots and bad writing. For now, good writing has to be reserved for reports and assignments.
Well this is all very much a perception of me - a waiting grad. Maybe others who have taken a different path in life might feel very differently about this...
Back to assignment n projects. then work. yawnz

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Monday, March 05, 2007

i realize.... i've got so many blog sites. and they are growing cobwebs. till i find more motivation to blog on the others... and make them private i shall just plant my ass here. though i still dun really like the idea of morons reading my site... but then again.. this is cyber space... haha and are u wondering if u r one of those morons? Leave a tag n i'll tell u if u're one. But then again... the morons that i'm referring to prolly will never tag here coz u know why??? Coz they are my secret admirers.. Wahahaha... I shall just treat them as avid fans of my lil boring life and rants. Wahaha.. BHB as ever.
apparently i think i'm mood swinging since the previous post which was done in such a short span of time was one of hot temper me... now this is crazy me.
ladida...
assignments drive me kukukuku... I wanna fly fly away fro hereeeeee....

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so many things to do *argh* imagine my signature msn emoticon monster flashing at you.
Argh...
Why alwiz got so many things to do.
1 down. embarking on the 2nd and 3rd.
sucks lah...
I HATE ASSIGNMENTS!
i hate being ignored! esp if i drop by ya spot n leave my marks there.
*growl*

-hot tempered gal

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Sunday, March 04, 2007

it's not the final outcome but the process that matters.
it's the same for everything.
both at work & in relationships.

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annoyed, angry, upset? Maybe just a lil disappointed.

Lost $$$ in MJ.blehz. Lucky star not around.

i miss buying oreo choc ice blended.

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Friday, March 02, 2007

WHY NO ONE BELIEVE I QUIT CLUBBING????
sighz
yes i quit clubbing n my name is still sharleen.
or mayhe i should change to a more demure name to match my new found demure self.

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ridiculous.
10 mins from house to Istana gantry.
10 mins from that gantry to sch car park
~!@#$%^&*()
the sch is so near yet so far. Damn. i see it but i haf to get thru the alwiz congested and traffic light infested road. Dunno haf so many traffic light for ****. esp the one just under the gantry. the traffic light that everyone practically ignores. Poor traffic light. After i'm done with that road, got to make a extra big U-turn and then battle with the turning buses into the lane that leads to the car park. All thanks to the new tunnel.
*pissed*
and now i get to class... extra late. only to discover he's going the same thing as last week.
wat can be !@@_(*&^%$#@ than that man. I should haf just stayed home to sleep... i stupidly believed that he was going to teach us how to calculate salary some other new way.
big PFFT to the floral shirt, blink watch, skinny jeans and pitiful-talking-to-the-wall prof.

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i am NOCTURNAL.
Wheeee....
Watch my eye bags grow...
I'm sleepy in the day. Wide awake at this wee hours.
OMG.
Bad bad bad.
Sleeping at 3am & waking at 5 to (flip, toilet, walk ard) & falling back asleep has been the sleeping routine for the past 2 days.
will it persist tonite? Say NO. I want to sleep like a baby today!!!
*rants, groans, rambles
GOOD NITE world. GOOD NITE shar.

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Thursday, March 01, 2007

okie... it's time to start looking for a job.
Darn.
the inertia to move is so high. blehz.
just land me a job. afterall... all jobs are more or less the same lah. it's a job.
Hahaha...
Just give me the money... since that's wat we're all working for...
I just want to bum at home n let money drop.
Can or not? Blehz
*builds sandcastle*

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housewife is a profession too k.
housewife not easy to be...
got management skills. negotiation skills... just to name a few...
so everyone out there...
to look down on housewives k. n remember to up the allowance for the housewives at home.
Wahahaha...

Sighz.
Someone said... if dun earn at least 8K a month dun even dare to think of marrying me. I so jialat meh??? Haiz

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