One, in the first place if u already know something then I figured it's basic rule one of THE higher up one to give a brief of that item and rule two, give a detailed and proper training checklist or something. Well, unless u are as new to this as a new fry, you are pardoned. But sad to say, NOT. Two, without anything concrete in place n not finding out what's happening out there isn't very helpful to a newbie trying to pick up something new. Three, do not ask questions that are beyond us. Yes I agree it's a good to know and what makes you think we have not thought about it. But somethings i believe it's still beyond any of us. If not, we won't be sitting where we will be and getting the nothing-to-boast-off paycheck. Four, sending someone to learn but yet getting someone else to do the training doesn't reflect on 1) the person who went to learn (and that's fine by me since i don't have the confidence to train and even if i did, i wouldn't mind the more technical person to teach) 2) on yourself as the higher up.  And in the first place, you had already someone in mind to do the technical training so I wonder why I try to put in so much effort to sort things out and make things as clear as I can get & sorting through the mess of haphazard information that was bestowed on me. But that's fine by me. coz I believe i've learnt invaluably through the process of seeking my own learning resources, sorting my own information and thoughts out. Five, if u dun seem keen and interested coz you already know, don't waste my time. I believe not everyone else is on the same standing as you. So if pure intentions is to question my knowledge and how much 'work' and 'effort' i've put in instead of the fun you've heard out of me, I believe that can be taken out with me alone without confusing another poor soul who hasn't stuck the hands in the mess. On the contrary, I have to admit that I have not done my full due diligence on the other product. But then again, when i tried to do my due diligence, the response i get, "it's the opposite of the other thing". Well done. Well said. I've been nice enough to not give you that answer as I believe that half of the world would have given you that. I dun blame half the world for giving me that answer coz I believe half the world has yet to figure it out totally themselves. And well, it's suggestive that it's the totally opposite. N it doesn't help that I get thrown that item only on the day when I was about to leave. What can I question or ask more? That should have been the hw to be done before flying me over. Six, I believe as one of the shit diggers, I should be highly involve in senior mgmt discussions at least when it comes to this matter. Well, i keep you in the loop but why do I not see myself being kept in the loop nor the other lowers kept in the loop? I have to keep asking n wondering and upon asking only to discover that some things have been discussed among the highers. Hey, the caste system won't work well yah. 

To sum it up, I'm not hard up on this trip. It's no fun for me & I had to play wif shit. It only seems fun coz I make sure I had some fun & simple pleasures of indulging in other's pple work culture which higher doesn't condon off. Neither do I. But like the saying goes... when u live in rome, do what the romans do. To others who might look in envy of this trip, there's nothing to be envious about, not esp when working wif higher. Better off paying for your own tix & go there for the weekend or going there for training course. 

i know technical reads this. i dun blame you or anything. I just think it's the problem of the mgmt. I'm thankful for the help i've got from technical n relateds. And all the whining they got from me. And well, it's never easy teaching someone with totally no finance in the blood. 

Thanks to all who has heard me whine. Prolly think i'm just a whiner but well there are some small things which impacts me much. I am already little, belittling even further doesn't help at all. Some day I know I will thank you for all these 'training' BUT for now, it annoys me. For the moment, I can only whine n suck it up, poke u back when i can but yet give you that smile. Pretencious as it may seem, that's life. N that's more like surviving in the corporate world.