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Wednesday, June 18, 2008
some days i feel like just giving up on motivating myself to stay in the job.
i know the motivation to leave isn't that great or at least not great enough to overcome all the obstacles of finding a new job
but yet i know it isn't engaging me enough to not harbour thots of leaving.
it's like yet another mental battle of motivating myself and pushing myself to stay engaged.
but these days disengagement seems like the way to go.
i guess at least it keeps me nonchalant to the politics that go on in the office
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i'm starting to hate the groupie thingy n how pple try to get into the groupies of the hip without realizing that they are no longer themselves.
isn't it tiring just trying to change yourself to someone u ain't just to get accepted?
for the observer perspective. it does feel a lil weird to note the changes.
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disengagement does keep the emotion balance at equilibrium though there are days where disengagement doesn't seem to work. some days i wonder why i am working so hard when other pple r busy chatting online or facebook or networking. or some days u reflect n realize that pple's wage per hour is a lot higher than yours not coz they are more experienced or they work harder. disparity. disparity in working hours... coming in late leaving early enjoying the lunch hours n lil times off in the day... summing up to less than 8hrs a day. disparity in claims.. claiming for hours that u dun work for. all these disparities does get to some of us on days. we could simply not care but being loud n relatively proud of it doesn't help. i guess i can't help but bitch about it.
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and all this detachment has prolly made me a very detached person in all sense of the word
so i guess...
one day i've got to tune back to the world's frequency
& also one day my wish is to tell that someone...
"i think i'm in love with you."


sun sets @ 10:44 PM

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