life's a one way road

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Travelling is suppose to be THE way to lose weight and i thot it would just be the way for me to lose weight...
BUT
with...

Ben & Jerry from Stockholm... FINALLY... i see B&J
Maple ice-cream, nuts & caramel swirls. Tantalising. Amazingly it's not that sweet at all.

Chocolate + Espresso from an irrestible cafe in Estonia. n u could smell it from afar!
And that is not a biscuit nor a straw. It's a cinnamon stick.

Pastries & Cakes ('nicely' priced) from the above said cafe.

A splurge-out at a Estonian restaurant.

Cabbage rolls... True-blue Finnish food which is supposedly to be medium-ly priced. Yar right. The figures are medium priced BUT the only difference is the currency sign in front. It's the big €uros n not the small $ing dollars. Sheesh.

Just SOME of the makan highlights of the trip till date. Just imagine the feasting that i have been doing. HOW NOT TO PUT ON WEIGHT???
More feasting tml...

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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Yippie... FREE INTERNET! @ Stockholm hostel. Finally it's back to spending Kronas...well at least for the next 2 days Now i appreciate the relatively cheaper SOL here... Haha... Finland is EXPENSIVE. Norway... OMG can't imagine...
Why can't all countries in Europe use EUROS??? Sheesh... Soon it have to think in terms of NOK (i think it's NOK). GRrrr...
I miss my home away from home. Travelling is tiring. Backpacking is worst. N as usual my shopping habit swung itself in place. *pouts*
Got heaps of photos to post... Soon i hope. Got lots of sleep to catch up. Tons of emails to clear... N horrors of horror... The mail delivery failure system here takes frigging 3 days to process... n as a result i only discovered that my final exam paper wasn't submitted. Die... Dunno how also.. N it seems that the email here runs on water.
Another early day tml... *yawnz*

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Saturday, March 25, 2006

In my futile attempt to try n fall asleep, i ended up blog reading. Set my alarm three times n each time it rings i'm still wide awake. Feeling sleepy but everytime i hit the pillow, i can't close my eyes n sleep. Maybe i shouldn't have turned down the drinking session to try n rest. But well, since i've made my choice, live by it gal.
I think i'm in one of my funny moods again. As i blog surfed, memories just flashed up, thots just plague me, questions pop, images of lil things that friends n me shared pop up. The most bugging qn came... how many of them actually remember all these? or even u? Friends come and go. Memories are all we have to keep. But I'm just glad to have known these pple. One day our paths will cross again.. hopefully.
went to shower n lost my train of thots... sooo sleepy now... shall try my last attempt to sleep.

we all know it hurts
but yet time and time again
we let ourselves fall prey to it
love or lust
u decide.

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Back to induce some life into this space. Though it's only going to be a temporary breathe of life. Simply coz 1) the owner is off for another long trip. 2) the owner is seriously considering shutting down this blog space.
Yeah... Dun be envious. Muahaha.. It's my intersem break. Had almost one week of bumming ard in this small lil village. So it's time to head out. This time ard... Finland, Stockholm, Norway. Gonna be another expensive trip. Sighz. But since i'm already in the vicinity of Scandanavia, it wouldn't make sense if i dun travel the neighbouring countries... N since this is not on the list of my holidaying destinations. But then again, I might just add scandic to my holidaying list. For its nature.
Somehow tripping doesn't seem to excite me anymore. Not as much. It's actually tiring to be travelling ard, planning n all the tiny things that come along with travel. From packing, booking of tickets, accomodation, transport, currency and all. Much as i love to travel ard, money seems to be somewhat of a problem of late. Somehow my liquidity seems to haf run into a drought. Okie... not really but there r so many avenues that requires my cash... n there r sooo many other places that requires this liquidity. Now got to measure the priortise these avenues. For sure, shopping has to go. Argh... the impulsive shopping habit has to be curbed. Blehz.

Woohoo... I haf a visitor! And so sweet... I got food (dessert actually) brought to me. So sweet. Thanks a million! I'm being really well-fed here lorz. OMG. I really should stop eating so much. I see that disguisting tummy popping out. N guess wat's for dinner??? Scallop porridge.. all thanks to my mum.. i've got scallop lorz.

Oh wellz... money woes... one of the woes i haf here. ARGH. N yes the gal has money woes too yar.. My mummy isn't a gold mountain where i can mine for gold. Wish i could. Somehow i seem to be alwiz asking for moolah. N maxing out the credit card. :( Argh... N mind u... i haven't been shopping on the credit card. Shopping comes from my allowance here n my debits (but yar... the moolah source still came from mum... & i worked & saved) Haiz.

Travel woes. So many travel places i want to go. Can't decide if i should blast more money travelling in n out of this place or just wait till the end. But u know wat... some places muz go while everyone is on exchange as well. N it's really hard to resist travelling with other pple esp if they jio lorz. So up next... Finland with the gals. Stockholm with FK, Norway with lundies & jia. Russia with the singaporean gang n char. Denmark with cow. Lux with jia (tentative). Amsterdam still pending... dunno who to go with... 3 grps... finally got pple from here to travel with lorz. OMG. Greece??? $$$$ can u just fly into my account. Haiz... still wanna go some places to find pple... Belgium, Italy, France, Germany. HOW HOW HOW?

BOSS woes. Which is kinda settled since term 3 i can't bid for boss 3A. So just haf to push this woe till boss 3B opens. Argh... I can't decide if i should double major. If i dun, next sem i pia 6 course n intern n i'm off to the working world. If i double major, tt makes it 2 more sems n intern. BUT i run the risk of not being to able to grad as a double major. Simply coz OBHR courses alwiz seem to be cancelled. :( N if do decide to not double major, my BOSS woes will be off my list coz only reason i'm gg to blast 600 bucks for summer is for a blardy HR course. Sheesh.. Pros n Cons?

Internship woes. Drop me an overseas intern now pls. I'll be most glad. But oh wellz... prepared to skip a term of sch for intern.

Visa n air tix woes. Visa ends 30th June. Plans to stay till July. So how? Wanna stay till end July but looking at things... 1) air tix having problems extending. 2) Visa needs to be reapplied. 3) Moolah problems??? 4) Travel plans??? 5) Summer term if i take. N i want to go back n celebrate 2 of the SKs birthdays (hmm... but hor i dun want to celebrate with SK on hand hor... birthday party n not SK party hor... hmm... But somehow we alwiz haf SK on hand. N SK alwiz finds their way to our mailbox. Just like how i was shocked to find myself on the graduation-related sk list.)

Blog woes??? Hurh. Just kidding. Not a woe. Just dun feel like blogging nor reading blogs. Depressing tt i can't post pix too. Realize how lagging i am with my travel blog. Sheesh...

Bleahs. So woe-y. Enough of woes. N dear all... living alone sure got a lot of things to do one. Doesn't matter which country u r in. Good luck to all applying for exchange. Blehz. More friends out of town next sem. Boohoo... Or maybe i should just apply for another. Haha...

Somehow the gal is a lil depressed today. N this blog space is depressingly quiet. Blehz. Read elsewhere if u haf elsewhere to read :)

Ciaoz.

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Monday, March 20, 2006

Writing this paper is driving me crazy. I hate writing economic papers especially since i'm not an economics student. And u know... the papers here ain't like our papers back home. We haf to write with academic references. Which is to show that we did our readings. And it isnt' that easy lah... All those economist say so much kuku... then still muz quote wat they say n site when they said it. Driving me bonkers. And my dear groupmate told me she doesn't know how to write the paper without cutting and pasting. OMG... Thank goodness it's individual work lorz. Hengz.
Produced 3 pages... another 3 to go... single-spacing.. N i think i'm producing substandard work. WTF. Depressing. Can't seem to plant in enough academic reference. So sianz. And i've been eating non-stop as i try to churn out my paper. So much for wanting to diet. N yes i know i'm fat. I muz start a stat counter for the no of counts of pple who tell me that i've put on weight. Blehz... I also know i put on weight n i'm trying to do something abt it... Dun want to be ah pui... Irony how last time choonie used to call me pui kia... N i was still relatively skinny... Now really become pui kia liaoz lah... Diaoz...
The weather is eccentric. It was snowing darn blardy heavily just now n now it's sunny. I so want to go out n play... go n jog or skate... but i'm stuck writing my paper. Few more hours... *renz* Nvm... shall make do and pamper myself at home.
N i need to find a way to upload pix on my blog with my mac. HELP!
I love this ranting space! If only i could write as much for my paper. Muahahaha...

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MY PARCEL IS HERE! The last parcel. Highlight of the morning. It's finally sitting in my room... after sitting in DHL for more than a week. It's so strange that my fellow mates here had their parcels sent from the same place but their parcel can be collected at the local post office but mine alwiz ends up at DHL. Diaoz...
My mummy is so cute! She packed me Hello Panda & my fav apple chips (i think she hasn't seen how fat her daughter has grown... hmm... ) . N some magazines.. march issues cleo, style n her world. (yes... finally got English magazines to read liaoz... interested parties can borrow from me) N alongside is a SMU Propagenda leaflet... dunno they send to my house for wat? SMU really got nowhere else to spend their money is it??? Put at the news stand n we take can liaoz... still muz send. Diaoz... I see 2 familiar faces in the book. Haha...
Hmm... No wonder the smaller box cannot fit lah... But she's so sweet.
Sighz... now i'm having troubles with my visa & air tix back. WTH...
FYI: in case u think my mum is too rich tt she's sending me all these crap stuff... It's not that she's rich. The parcel is charged by the box. So u can fit as many things into it as possible. Haha... Regardless of weight.

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DIE. Less than 48hrs to churn out my exam paper. Sighz. But no mood to do. Mind clogged with shit.
Why think so much shar?!?! U know jolly well that nothing comes out of your thinking? Either u take action or let things happen? Think for wat? *continues to scold self*
Went to jog then went ice skating. Spring is coming. The ice at the rink started to melt n being soft n nuahish... the layer of water on the ice is getting more n carving of the blades on the ice makes deep marks on the ice. Which is cause of my fall. ARGH.. which has left me with a frigging big blue-black n an aching knee. I was just skating normally when my blades got caught in the grooves. Haiz. But i finally can make a half turn n fullstop. No more 360 degrees turn. N i'm in love with the sound of the blades carving into the ice. Muahaha... N i managed to skate backwards too.. Lala... Come to think of it... Ice skating is easier than blading. Let's hope my blading skills improve when i get back. I miss my blades. I miss skating at ECP... having the wind beat against ya face while i skate along n get my tan. Bleahz. For now i'll content with boring ice-skating n going round the rink. But yet it seems like this lil enjoyment of mine would haf to go with the coming of spring. Haiz.
I'm torn. Torn between wanting spring n winter. Winter is my favourite season. I scared of the cold... rather i dun like being cold especially when i'm frozen n nothing keeps me warm. But yet i love winter. I like the chill of it. I love winter clothings. All the jackets as evident from my collection of jackets back home. N wat i love most is that piling on the layers helps to hide my fats! N i won't be sweaty n all. N SNOW. I love it. Esp when everything ard is white n snowy. N pls everyone... i really like white. not coz of anyone... so pls stop giving me that look when i stray towards the white side.
On the contrary, i want spring to come. At least i will see more life everywhere. I won't haf to pile on sooo many layers. There would be more nature for me to admire n indulge in. Loving the nature that surrounds me. I never fails to awe me. Even if i'm alwiz running on the same trail. It's different everytime. Sometimes i wish i had such a perfect camera to capture exactly wat i see.
But the coming of spring sends this signal that exchange is ending. This dreamland, this carefree lifestyle is going to end, throwing me back to reality. Till now i still haven't figured if the reality that welcomes me in singapore would be pleasant one or one like the past. I still haven't figured that bit out. Though chances are that some would continue where it left off... both good n bad. Friendships continues to run. New friendships built. Friendships broken. Part of my old lifestyle would swing back in place. New lifestyle would have to be set in. Friendships from here??? Is that the end? Beats me.
Enough.
Anw seems like today's the day that everyone is planning their trips n euro trips. This somehow signals the ending of our exchange yar. So darn fast. So much for wanting to start on my paper today. Haha... For now... April is packed to the brim. May can only haf space for weekend trips for the first 3 weeks. sheesh. So many more places to go. Haiz.
Side-tracking. I think someone in my house is koping the sauces in my cupboard! My kebab sauce n mustard which i barely use seems to be fairly empty now. Hmmm... *puzzled*
Enough of shit from me. Back to churning my paper.

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Sunday, March 19, 2006

Finally i'm no longer feeling sleepy. Thank goodness. At least i can get out n do some of my stuff. But as usual time seems to fly by here.
Let's see... chatted with a few pple this morning. Sorted out my organizer & some more travel plans. Looked at my exam question & attempted to write some outline for it. Tt's abt it... N before i know it.. it's 3 pm.
The weather outside is brillant. It's 5 degrees (as reported by my mac) & it's nice n sunny out there. I see pple jogging ard. Old couples strolling their dogs. Young couples pushing their lil bundles of joy in prams. Kids running ard n playing in the snow. Dating couples walking hand in hand ard. Blissful.
Wish i was out there enjoying the weather. Miss weather to be ski-ing or skating. But i'm too lazy to get pple out... N wat more i haf work to do. *yawnz*
Shall go jog later. N ice-skate. Or mayb i should go jog then get back to do my work.
Oh well... wanted to post pix... but fark mac... cannot post any pix... till i figured out how to...

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A.W.A.K.E
The 4 hour sleeping bug is back to haunt me.
D.R.E.A.M.S
They are back to rob me of my sleep.

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Went to watch ice hockey match today. Brand new experience. HV71 trashed the other team 5-1. Muahaha... But somehow it wasn't as good as i would haf expected it. Cannot really see much... The disc is like how small... can't see it lah... or mayb i'm cock eye... But i enjoyed watching them skate ard... N well... tried to pick somethings up.. Muahaha... Shall post pix when i am finally hardworking enough (coupled with the lack of a picasa-like programme for mac... posting pix is sian). Been slow in blogging of late. Kiruna trip has yet been blogged. Then poland trip. N now the match. Promise that they'll be up before i leave for finland at the end of the month.
Tired. Very tired. Sleepy.
Duno why also. Crashed really early last nite... N i really mean crash. Lie on the bed n just knock out... Until u barely know wat's going on ard u... N slept till late today but still so tired. But i woke up a few times in between & my usual ungodly waking hours is back to haunt me. Guess travelling is tiring. Sleeping in an unfamiliar place keeps my senses up. It's good to sleep in somewhere u r familiar with. Somewhere where ya senses can just rest. N u know u can just rest in peace. Best is dun haf any other distractions like MSN. Lala...
Have been dreaming a lot of late. N tt makes me even more tired. In poland, i dream abt the pple here n the pple at home. Back here, i dream of pple back home. But it's disturbing that some particular person appeared in my dream last nite. I would haf woken up with an outburst of feeling but now, not anymore. In fact, it's disturbing to know that some unconscious part of my brain has filtered him thru back into my life (yes, the said person has been out for a long while). It was a sweet dream but a meaningless one. I live in reality, no longer in dreams or 'our' world.
What do all these dreams mean? Tired of dreaming. I need a dream weaver by my bedside manz.
Falling aslp in front of my lappy. Argh... Shall wake up @ my ungodly hour to write my paper.
Nites.
-wishing for huggables to hug to sleep.

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Friday, March 17, 2006

I'm BACK!!!!!!

Omg... I miss this boring old town... my boring old life... n all the pple here... especially the fellow glut-out peeps. Muahaha... Nothing beats home. Home Sweet Home.
Take aways from this trip & after:
1) I've REALLY REALLY GROWN FAT. *sulks*
2) I'm a compulsive shopper. (blames it on the lack of shopping here. So it's all the pent up need to shop being suddenly released. Luggage was overweight AGAIN. why like that? but fortunately no need to pay the rocket high overweight charges. came back with 10kg more of luggage not counting on the food. *blames the vodka* )
3) I'm a tough eater. results: FATS piling.
4) Despite the high cost of living, i still love sweden more.
5) I love POLISH food. OMG... heavenly.
6) Vodka rather alcohol in Poland is F***ing cheap. (Chris.... u should just migrate there lah... *stares at my 3 bottles of vodka* For now i drink on ya behalf. Go back then pei u drink)
7) Discovers more about self.
8) Guys nowadays are getting more n more cannot-make-it. But then when i think abt it... i think my expectations of them are a bit too high. Muz lower or not cannot find BF. Muahaha...
9) Coffee makes me lose my appetite n stop my craving for food. Perfect diet plan.
10) No matter how tired i am, i alwiz haf energy for some things. Like ice-skating with my missed friends here. N they all minus one got skates. Wheee...

Tt's abt it for now... Back to staring at the pile of stuff i brought back n having to unpack the leftovers. *yawnz* At least 3 loads of laundry done.
Things to do: Unpack. Count this trip's expenditure though i dun feel like. Think it'll hit 1.5K with a large portion gg to my shopping n food. clean my room. write my paper. Supermarket. work out my trip details. blog. post pix. EXERCISE! and countless more things.

Where is spring??? It doesn't seem to come by here.

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Monday, March 13, 2006

Missing is a feeling that i've been so accustomed to.
But yet each time the feeling comes...
it brings me different reactions to it...
Well wellz..
I miss my bed in Raslatt...
I miss the pple in the lil village...
*pouts*
Off to Slovakia...

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Saturday, March 11, 2006

Greetings from the land of Poles. Ladida...
Now in one of the 2nd largest town in Poland. And this place is awesome. The architecture is one-of-a-kind. Old but yet well-kept, clean, bricks n stones, finely designed. Lost of words to describe this place. N walking in the centre squares does give u the feeling that u r back in medieval times. N this place is so full of history... remants of the world war. SWEET. Wish i had a pro camera lah... (and of coz with the skills) then can capture EVERYTHING. Haiz...
N wat more... the food is so darn good. N there is food till late into the nite. Wat more can i complain about. Somewhat similar to singapore. Food all round. Traditional polish food is yummyilicious. Their food is as healthy as singapore food. There is this bread spread that is made of lard n fried fat. OMG... it's heavenly. Shall indulge in it while i'm here... since i won't get it when i head back to sweden. Muahaha... I'm super well-fed here. OMG... I can feel all the fats piling.
Road tripping is FUN. I wanna drive ard... Shall consider that when i'm back.
Alcohol consumption till date:
Thursday... 1 litre of beer, 1 shot of cherry (i think) vodka, johnny walker & 6 Kamakaze (n the kamakazes here r BLUE. Pretty blue... n they r much nicer than those home)
Friday... a mug of beer, some nice vodka with apple juice, hot wine (darn shiok) & another mug of beer.
So far haven't really drank that much. But dun intend to get drunk here... I'm a tourist who wanna tour the place n not nurse a hangover manz. No more of mixing beer, hard liqour n wine... damn bad...
And everything here is CHEAP. Did so much shopping here liaoz... DIE la... haiz..
Ciaoz... off to breakfast n shan't hog the internet. Shall blog soon...

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Thursday, March 09, 2006

Last blog before i head off to the land of the poles. Lalala...
Somehow a part of me is not really looking forward to the trip... Dunno why also... While the other part of me just can't wait to leave this place. Leave this depressing town... N it's like my first travel out of Sweden. N off i go to see some familiar faces. It just feels good to be able to see friends once again after like 2 months. It's not as though the pple here ain't my friends... but nothing beats meeting old friends. Looking forward to the new experience of travelling with other pple. Poles included.
Something set me thinking. I'm beginning to wonder if guys from a particular school somehow have been brought up with some warp education. Coz they seem to behave in a particularly wierd way n the parralels that i draw from 2 of them.. n the situation seems somewhat similar. Except that one is less violent. *ponders*
Off i go.. shall abandon this blog for a few days. Or maybe i'll try blogging over there. Dun miss me! :P Yes, i'm BHB.

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*pissed* Dunch like the guy who sells bus tix at my sch... Make me get wrong tix... N now i haf to pay for a new set of tix. Extra 155 SEK. TMD... *reminds self never to take advice from him liaoz* Haiz... But anw.. glad that all is well n settled. At least i know i'll be able to catch my flight tml morning... But that means another pretty much sleepless nite... since i'll be on the bus from 2AM to 5AM n then (hopefully not) have to brave the cold n wait for the airport bus. Sianation. Hopefully the bus station is a proper bus station like those here n not just a bus stop. Haha...
T.I.R.E.D
Haven't been sleeping enough... slept at 4 n my body automatically wakes up at 6am. WTH. Another sleepless nite... Oh wellz... Tml nite die liaoz... confirm, gurantee plus chop. Haiz... Can only pray that they be nice to me manz...
Time to go off to go out... Off to the land of poles!

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Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Highly depressing...
1) My wonderful cannon ixus's battery is kuku. I dies after taking less than 100 shots. Figured that its life span is dependent on the weather.
2) My darling Nokia 7270 mini display is screwed. From a small ink smudge on the LCD it has transformed to a BLACK screen. And the warranty period is over. Sianation (another of my vocab) . Should have sent it for repair before i came when it was still in the last few days of its warranty period. Time to buy new phone. But no chio phones to buy. N mummy's going to nian AGAIN ... yes... i seem (actually... i think) change a new phone every year or within less than a year. Maybe i'll get a new phone when i go to Finland - nokia land. Hopefully it's cheaper n got chio-er models.
3) My nokia 6230 battery life doesn't last beyond a day. 2 days if i totally dun use it.
4) My darling Fujitsu can't detect my LAN wire. It keeps saying that the cable is unplugged when it's plugged in. :S HELP! Any idea wat's wrong? N this village has no Fujitsu service centre. *yawnz* That equals i can't use it to MSN n blog. So there prolly isn't gg to be much pix from now on till i find a similar picasa like software for my mac and since drag-n-drop doesn't work here.
5) Ipod is showing signs of crankiness. Attributes it to the couple of times it flew off the threadmill. Haiz... N yesterday my fat gloved hand managed to press some funny combinations of the buttons till i got into the service screen... solution to problem... reformat ipod. :S :S LIP! If my ipod got problems n needs repair... no wait... 1-for-1 change... muz i send it to u or i can do it from any apple shop?
Everything is failing... n soon self will start failing. saddening... i should just get a new camera & hp. & prolly a new self.
Walked pretty aimlessly ard this lil 'village' with a friend in some attempt to discover this place. N this is indeed a small 'village'. Walked a straight road n ended up somewhere which in my opinion seemed really faraway. N it din seem like a long walk. Haha... Walking ard here is quite shiok... sun shining, cool air n most importantly u dun perspire n dun become sticky like in humid singapore. Seems like u can just walk on for eternity. Walking makes u discover small lil things ard you that u would never get to notice on the bus. Out of curiosity (boredom), we tried to walk on this frozen river but after a few steps... figured the risk wasn't worth it... Muahaha... Walked on and ended by the beach once again. But this time the water's all frozen. So can safely walk(slide) on 'water'. Muahahaha... Shall go to the frozen water again before it melts. Lalala... N i love the echoing sound when u drop something on the ice. Haha...
Guys dun understand gals. Gals dun understand guys. So is there something that both gender can understand about each other??? Off to lend my ears...
On a happier note... i'll get to see some of my dearest friends here... dun haf to wait till july lorz. :)

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Tuesday, March 07, 2006

YEAH! Finally done with ENTISBE report. Muahaha... Left take home exam... FREE!!! Submit it and i'm done. Lalala... Free from my perfect project group mate.

For the first time i'm not rushing in the morning to get out of my house... Muahaha...

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PRESENTATION IS OVER!!! Yoo hoo...
Wasn't too satisfied with my slides this time round. But guess what... I produced the nicest slides in the class *gloats*. Haha.. Nothing to gloat about la... It's substandard compared to those produced back home la...
Commentary time...
The pple here is really super untechy la... Some groups presented with transparencies... transparencies which they used word to do... so eeks... Some groups presented WITHOUT transparencies or slides. They read off their report *pengz*. Or not it's the same boring blue-white template. Muahaha...
Then presentation they also dress until quite lock cock lah... Sheesh...
I'm quite amazed by my prof's lappy. It's like how old lah... One USB port only. and it's FAT. Like those super old dell ones. It's really quite diaoz... N the projector is not mounted. It's just placed on a chair n for groups using ppt we have to elevate the projector with something. Feels like i'm bad to old school days... in primary school like that.

Anw managed to get my prof to extend my deadline for the submission of the report. Din feel that it was ready for submission and my groupmate was fine with having more time for it. N we agreed to work on it with her starting work on it since i won't be free till late in the nite. N before we parted... i jokingly said we could sleep on our report. That statement is the start of my horrors of horror. Just now when she finally came online, we chatted n i casually asked if she made an changes to the report coz i was gg to start working on it... after my late dinner... planning for poland... preparing for russia documents.... clearing the mess i created in my room. Guess her reply? (no prize for getting the right ans though ;P) She said that i said that we will sleep on our report, and she hasn't slept so she hasn't done anything. *rolls eyes jaw drop* Sheesh... does it mean she intended to sleep with me and the .doc file or a printed copy? OMG... ARGH... dunno wat to say.

YIPPEE... my lonely planet book is here. Dun need to pay that stoopid 5 pounds of shipping. Lalala... Thanks PK!

My trips are more or less settled... now left finland n norway... Shall go read up on these 2 places... Hehe... But first my report... Tonite like no need to KO again. Blehz...
Suddenly i'm having 2nd thots abt gg to poland. Will be there for so many days... away from my home-away-from-home :( But looking at the places i want to go... it seems so short... AND spare me when i'm there plssssssss............... i'm not tt gian to indulge in the polish lifestyle. Haha...

Back to the not-so-perfect-but-i-will-perfect-it report.
Another late nite... n another early morning...

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Monday, March 06, 2006

:(
I'm munching again. So much for not wanting to haf dinner. Argh... First i started munching on bread... then biscuits... then cucumber... ARGH... How not to grow fat...
ALL ENTISBE's fault. Stupid report. :(
N back to bitching...
bitch 1) my fabulous grp mate only willing moved her ass today to do project after much of my pestering n bugging.
bitch 2) So she sent me some report done by some other grp last term... N she said she could just use it. OMG... I nearly fainted. Much as i would love to use it... BUT ethics manz. It's worst than plagarism... It's full-scale COPY. I dun want to get f***ed for this course lorz... Somemore same prof. Is she D-U-M-B. Wat more i duno how their urkand system works. Urkand is somewhat like our turnitin that checks for plagarism. Scaly their ones are so high tech that they have past students reports then ho say liaoz lor...
bitch 3) i told her i worked on the first part of the report so i said i'll sent her wat i haf. N she said ok... n said that she was researching but can't seem to find info... then i asked if she wants to continue working on the next part while i go find. Reply was: actually there's no need to rephrase everything. Then she said.. she's researching for more information n found more info... (woah... so convenient lor... suddenly ask her write then she found liaoz). N so she said... she'll continue finding more info n write out wat she found n i could continue working on the report. :S
bitch 4: she doesn't know how to ppt slides. Is singapore making us too techy... too techy for our own good. N therefore ppt i haf to do. Not tt i'm complaining since i'm alwiz the one doing ppts (last minute ones most of the time... n i mean last minute even to the last second before we present... dun want to break that record manz... Yeah... the record stands at my ppt slide was only completed just before we went to present... still got some uncompleted slides lorz... n i dun mean beautifying... i mean content. That bad. Haha... NO MORE manz... but at least the slides still looked decent... take pride in that... Haha... Well trained to work under stress... all thks to jana banana's blardy valuation project. BRRRRR... )
bitch 5: project mate alwiz seems to disappear the nite before the due date. N only appears towards the wee hours of the nite. WTF. Blacklisted project mate for next sem.
bitch 6: all these work is making me munch. Munching non-stop... even as i blog. HOW NOT TO GROW FAT?!?!?! All the gyming n skating today went to waste
N u muz be thinking how come i'm so free to blog. Not free. Just taking a break n need an outlet to bitch. MSN is a bad outlet since i'll end up chatting so here shall be it. N i'm sleepy n drained. But still got to fry more brain cells n search for that creative juice.
I want my soft toys to hug............................................................................

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Sunday, March 05, 2006

Brrr...
It's getting colder each day. WHY WHY WHY? I thot spring was coming? I love the winter... the snow... but i can't take the cold. -2 is a comfortable temperature... note comfortable... it's no longer a temperature where i will curse n swear at the cold... it's a temperature that i've well adapted to... where everything is still frozen n snowy. Would be nice if it's a lil higher but coz of the sloosh... i rather it stay below 0. Any lower i can start to curse and swear. And of late... temperature hovers around -10. I just makes me feel like parking in my room... And wishing that there's someone there for me to cuddle. :S
Weather forecast for tuesday evening... *drumroll* -18. Overnight temp -20. I'm so gg to park in my room. Sounds like this place is becoming Kiruna no. 2 lorz. Pengz.

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Piled on my thermal, track suit n my running shoes... Plugged on my ipod n off i was jogging in the cold winter. N not forgetting my head band. Haha... The feeling is damn shiok. You can feel the peals of sweat trying to burst out from under your skin as u jog... while the cold air (-10 degrees) beats against your face...
Ran round my estate... n i realize it's chao big la... My estate... Raslatt...
I starting to think it's a pretty depressing estate... especially the kind of people that i see her... It's a estate for the lower income.. So yar... the pple Even blocks r like for students... Odd blocks r like for families. Ran to the skating rink, stadium.. and went thru one of those nature trails.. Only to discover that i was 2 bus stops down. But the scenary compensated it all... The sun setting and peeking at you through the trees... the snow covered trails n once-what-used-to-be-grass. Maybe it's still a pretty nice estate afterall...minus the strange pple that u might meet ard...
Only complains is that my fingers freeze.. din bring gloves.. shall bring them along.. AND it gets hard to breath in the cold. Shall run more round my estate... Haha...
Shall go off to do my laundry n cook for the big feast tonite. :) 10 pple dinner... How happening... Haha...

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Saturday, March 04, 2006

Picasa only allows me to post 3 pix at one shot. :( So more solarium pix...

Suaku me in the machine. Can't blame mah... Since singapore is nothing but sun and natural rays. No need for fake tanning lorz...

So u just lie there... with the lights heating u up right to ya bones. N imagine u r on the hot n sunny Sentosa. And there r fans blowing at ya legs... n music that blast from the machine. Muahaha..

-end of my lil adventure to the solarium (which also led me to visiting a cemetry which was on the way)-

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Check out my readings (for one course only lor)! I actually got all my readings printed out. Not that i want to kill the trees.. But the blardy PDF files can run thru 50 odd pages per reading. Can't expect me to read online lorz... Anw... due to the thickness of each stack of reading, my dear miserable small staple couldn't staple them together. And thus for awhile i had my notes sprawled all over my table. Till a few days back, i decided that i needed to file them. And naturally i din bring any files over (only brought folders n the threading thingy) so i went to the bookshop to buy. Being brillant sweds, they only haf ring files that have 4 holes. Nvm... Smart me thot of a solution.... which is to punch it twice. Happily i bought the file n went home to try out my "creative" solution. Guess what?!?! The distance between the two holes are much longer than those from our punchers we use back home. Tried to think out of the box and use my current hole puncher... BUT in the end... i figured... with that blardy thick stack of notes, i might as well get a hole puncher here since it would come in handy with my xiong courses (which i predict haf loads more readings) next sem. So happily i headed to get my hole puncher from the supermart (hypermart rather... n y not the bookshop? Coz it wasn't on the way).
Horrors of horrors... the 4 hole puncher costs 69 kronas (about SGD 15) Frigging expensive. Contemplated for super long... till i saw that their huge staplers were going for like 80 kronas... when we can get them like cheap in singapore... So figured that stationaries here r indeed not cheap.
Tt explains how that expensive black object tt would keep my table n notes neat ends up on my desk.

Enough of bitching. Went to the Solarium today. Not any solarium but Mr Johan's solarium (why is it special? Coz this place is opened by a fellow swed student whom apparently is cute[yeah... 3 gals r going gaga over him...... N read APPARENTLY coz he doesn't seem tt cute on the photos i saw]
Solarium tanning is my (futile) attempt to blacken myself since judging from my recent pix i somewhat can blend in with the snow. Sad case. And the lack of sun on my skin seems to be making my skin blotchy :S.

So do i look darker? Haha... A after tan pix btw if u can't notice the tan.

Okie... so this is how the solarium works. U got there... Dong some coins (2Kr/min) then head to the room where the machine lies (pts below)... strip (to the barest if u want) then lie in the machine.

Yeah... there u haf it... So the UV lights from the top n bottom of the machine just tans u. 10 mins actually does give u an obvious tanline. Not too bad. Cool eh...
N i think i'm bimbo-fying. Silly me actually wanted to turn ard to lie so that i could tan my back. But there wasn't the need.. Coz the lights come from the top n the bottom. Muahaha...

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Thursday, March 02, 2006

Hmm... decided i needed a change... so new blogskin.

Something about it looks wrong but i just can't pinpoint the problematic part.
Any idea?
Shall sleep first...

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

Tired but i can't seem to fall aslp so i ended up blog surfing...

N i learnt that pick n bite sells ying-yang, ice coffee + milo and ice milo+ hollicks. Woah... I can't wait to go back to try them.

The lil things in life u just can't forget... Ice milo + holicks... his favourite drink n we coined it mil-licks. How we would zip to PS wang jiao to get his millicks n my ying yang. Now he can get it in sch.. Wonder how the sch one's taste like.

I'm in one of my pensive, nostalgic mood once again tonite. And i had to chance upon this new drinks in sch n trigger the lil things in life which have been nicely packed up. But it's ok.... none of him is part of my mood :) Kicked that aweful habit as well. I miss sitting up n talking to friends when i'm in this mood. Miss being able to find someone to chat thru the nite... Just sitting ard over coffee or just by the beach n chatting... It's an irony how everyone here lives alone but yet i can't find someone to chat the nite thru... hmmm... did tt once only. Oh wellz..

Is the 2nd or 3rd month of exchange syndrom setting in? I'm starting to miss pple back home. Miss my friends. But i'm also starting to discover how lucky i am. How life has changed so much for me. Changed for the better... though still scarred. How many friends that i have gained. I'm indeed blessed.

Maybe i still have him to thank at the end of it all. Thank him for making me discover so much abt myself, love, wat it means to be in love, wat it means to be in a r'ship (which equals screwed up coz this word no longer seems to exist in a distinct form. It's just nothing but surrounded by an aura of grey n murk), showing me who my true friends are, showing me how we alwiz neglect the lil things in life, how family n friends mean so much and how to love. And of coz for finally getting myself down to applying for this exchange (well... it started off with me needing to leave tt misery land but it slowly evolved to one i yearned to go) n being in this miraculous place n knowing the wonderful singaporean peeps here and the other many wonderful pple. And thanks for the wonderful memories we had n pampering me. Somehow this would only be penned n never be told to him. Coz it doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't matter to me if u remember me, or 'us' n to watever us would refer to. You know, I know, some others know. N the choice of our common friends doesn't matter anymore. Choices have been made. N such choices i respect n accept.

Happiness is all that matters. Just want u & u to be happy.

To love someone is not to possess but to give happiness to him.

And so no more from me or my friends. So till the day we talk again... it would be the day u initate the conversation... not the other way round, as alwiz unless it's the last resort. N let's hope it's not when u r on low.

To end this off... something tt's on my desktop...

If you can't be with the one you love. Love the one you are with.

It's a rather sad writing. But... There's a reason u can't be with someone. A reason only God knows... n i believe one day u will know why. So love n treasure whom u haf by ya side :) Too bad.. Love exist but the one you are with doesn't exist (let's hope it's only for now... )

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i need some P.E.A.C.E.

Frig... this is not a karoke place... Argh... My flattie n friend is singing at the top of their voices... ARGH..........................................................

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