life's a one way road

Thursday, August 31, 2006

strategy
strategically bored. trying to strategize on the entertainment that i require to keep awake and attempt to absorb some intellectual mumbling. Brillant eh...
Shout outs!!!! Dear friends update ya blogs... so this bored gal here can read during this class... wahhahaha....
and did i mention that somehow our msn has been blocked?!?! that's one less entertainment... geez...
on the hind sight... i'm counting down to yet another weekend! WHEEE...
MJ tml... and i'm back to my addiction... wahahahaha.... haiz.. must enjoy time while i haf them lorz...

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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

now the class size has been officially upped to 50. WONDERFUL. Wat happened to the promise of small class size? And imagine a interactive HR class and half the world is fighting to get their opinions heard. And wat do u get??? A fish market! wat a turn off... i shall just sit n shut up... dun feel like joining the raising of voices and AA-ing.
Wanna watch moovieeee... N i'm suffering from addiction withdrawal system. Boohooo... 3 hour break n another go-to-sleep class...

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

i'm so bored n restless... n suffering from cold fingers now coz i decided that too much MJ-ing is bad for my pocket n it only makes me hooked... so i decline MJ session... So now.. i'm having withdrawal symptoms!
Want to go out but i lazy to jio pple n i'm happily in my PJs... haiz...
N my other MJ kaki is residing over at the northest end of sg for the weekend... I AM HOW BORED!
N somehow it seems so hard to find pple to do silly things with me at nite... how comes??? Everyone growing older liaoz huh? Haiz... I want to play sparklers @ nite... walk n bump ard ECP... play bridge thru the nite... go hunt out new places.... tok cok thru the nite n wait for sunrise... watch tmd late nite movies... HAIZ... BORED LAHz...
i just want to hop over to someone's house n nuah there... tt one also hard now... Haiz... haiyoh...
i'm so bored that i'm whining... haiz...
Movies i want to watch....
1) My super ex-gf
2) The breakup
3) Love wreck
4) Click
5) Lakehouse
6) Pirates
7) Snakes on a plane
8) The devil wears prada
9) Barnyard.
Any interested parties?
shall continue to find things to entertain myself...
N am i weird or wat? how come alwiz get associated with weirdos....

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Saturday, August 26, 2006

diversity. that's wat u get when pple from all fields gather over sheeeeshaaaa & alcohol. Imagine a conversation where the doctor, economist, biologist, lawyer, events person, business person and arts person air their views... the fusion of all the different terms... from very cock topics to the utmost serious topics. Haha... kinda miss listening to such diverse conversations especially when i'm half the time surrounded by biz pple. geez... so i've upped a bit of my bio vocabulary (lithotomy) in a nite... kinda missed bio... since it's been my life for 4 yrs...
realisation! we're all getting OLD. in 8 yrs we'll all hit the big 30s. talks on career, marriage n having kids are starting to buzz all ard me.... it's time to embark on finding THE career and THE man so i can start joining in the buzz of conversations. The former would definitely be much much easier despite much outcries that jobs are hard to find. Haha... Haiyoh... Dun be so fussy can liaoz... Money is not everything when u job hunt! Anw seems like it's the season to get attached... Does tt mean i got hope? Hurh hurh... But ans remains as No coz i got asked if anyone's after me... N ans is once again NO. Like that how to haf that slightest hope? Muahahaha... Or maybe i should just lift up to that 'name' of 'the gal (slut) who's after the guy for his pwetty car'. sighz... why am i surrounded by pple who lives in such shallow n myopic world? *yawnz* Anw bested bud says must find guy while in uni... haha... n now must find husband material... no more bf material... *loud huh*
so competitive lah... rat race rat race... compete in sch, compete in career, find guy also got competition. WTH lah...
shall just focus on moi goals now...
up my GPA n get out of sch!
get a job n b financially indenpendent.
stay in shape but round is not the shape i'm referring to. (check! kickbox & gym wif my gym buddy. blade.)
keep in touch with moi friends...
AND i watche my first RA show in the cinema... muahaha.. i begin to wonder how they rate RA xia... not even RA lah... piangz

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Friday, August 25, 2006

inner feelings & all those... i'm really bad at them... dunno why... but tt's wat i realisee once again today... so many instances has proven that...

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Thursday, August 24, 2006

the irony of it... had to bump into pple from my previous post.
sometimes i think... my presence is making life n things a lil difficult... oh wellz...
can't wait to get my hands on the stocks... darn... if only it's real money... haiz

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

i would like to know wat's happening with your life but i refuse to ask. So i guess things will stay that way.

it's funny how pple whom u used to date just seems so alien.

looking forward to class crashing later. first in all my 3yrs n 1sem.

looking forward to MJ! Keke...

i need some drugs for my addiction. or maybe some cold turkey.

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

i thot the hike in sch fees came along with a promise of small class size... How come i dun feel that that seems like the case. Sheesh... I'm staring @ a class with 50 pple in it? Maybe it's just week 1 and there are tons of crashes but i doubt the class size will reduce much from next week on. This sucks. I hate such huge classes... Just increases my space-out count. Booo... I miss the days when the class is like 20+ pple. Though we can't skip classes but at least class would be something that I look forward to. Haiz. I guess this is still afterall an organisation that seeks profits too.

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I pray i get it. At least it will be something to occupy my time. Something away from sch. I need a place to escape to but yet a place for me to do something as well...
Sometimes dun u just wish u were smarter... wish u were prettier... wish u were taller... wish u were slimmer?
Super low morale... feeling darn fat...

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Monday, August 21, 2006

i wish i once again have the courage to confess my fondness for whoever that person may be

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Sian. Dunno why so sian also. Had a long day today, driving my friend around and getting his apartment in some kind of order. I really dun mind being her own shoes actually. Coz it only means i'll be living alone. Though it's damn shiok to sit n nuah ard at home n haf ya laundry done, house well kept, food brought to u and not having to do any chores, but strangely i prefer the days where i haf seemingly endless lists of to-dos n grocery-to-buy.
I miss the countless days where we spend whipping up a sumptous meal... and then sitting round the table for dinner and gorging on our large spread n quantity of food. I miss just having cider to accompany our meals... Cider... blehz... 5.80 for a can here... And our sweet tooth cravings of chocs, cakes or some dessert. Blehz. Miss miss miss... I miss popping over to TY's for i dunno wat.... tok cok maybe? Blehz.... Contributor to my sian-ness... So sian... no house to pop over to... pple i can talk to all tired or sleeping or preparing for sch & work. Haiz... ARGH...
Running low on cash too... Double Sianz... Need to source for moolah... Find job n occupy my time....
No purpose next term. Need to find something to commit to... sheesh... makes me sound like a committment freak. Sound like i'm going to dig myself a shit hole... Best is can dig a shit hole that earns me moolah... Hahaha...
Sian...

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Saturday, August 19, 2006

decided that i will just get my hair done today. shall not bother looking for a hairstylist. i will randomly walk into any hairdresser and get a haircut. decided to give up on wanting to perm. shall save that for another drastic pt in my life. shall keep to my rebonds since it's only half a yr old n it'll be such a waste to perm.
doing up my hair seems to haf some kind of start-it-over again n picking myself up significance. First time was when the fling ended and my mum dragged me to get my hair cut n dyed. Second time i got my hair rebonded after it all ended. Wellz.. now i'm getting my hair done again... but somemore there is no significance to this hair do... maybe i won't even get a hair do... just a trim... we'll see wat luck i get with some random hairdresser... Muahahhaa...

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it's just an addiction.

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

feeling super aunty nowadays... esp after my 'shopping'... rather... errand running trip today... blehz... tt's wat life's going to be like next time... geez....

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slept at 3
up at 5
stomach growling
knee itching
nose stuck n dripping
been going on for nites.
total misery.
someone feed me some sleeping pills pls...

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almost planless tml... other than the nite... n now meeting jm for lunch. Yippee... Craving for PS tom yum ban mian lah... Haha.. So i shall drag myself out of bed. Keke...
Wanted to bitch but i guess i've gotten it out of my system by bitching with my poor friends. So now i'm @ peace n nothing to bitch about... anw... yes talk is cheap. phrasee well learnt in sch... had enough of cheap talk. when u say something mean it plssss... coz i dun treat them as cheap talk. n somehow i keep thinking all the events n sk has made me less tolerant to lots of stuff... dunno why... maybe a part of it is true... but some stuff is plain intolerable.
clubbing tml... praying that i won't haf to see someone n any signs of that someone. u r no longer a driving force nor deterant for me to club. So fun it will be tml... n if i see u... so be it.
lost my train of thot. wellz.. time to koon
section 7! rings a bell??? anw... section 7 facis check mail n reply k! it's been a long time since we all met... missing last summer. blehz...

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Met any bf material?
A question asked but i had no answer for that. A question that only sparked more questions... So what is bf material? So what if that someone poses all the bf material you ask for, he may not make the best bf or he may not be available. similarly, being once your bf doesn't necessarily mean he poses the bf material.
Then i asked myself... wat makes gf material? does my definition of gf material sync with those of the guys? Somehow i'm led to think that it doesn't... coz i can't be the girl that my guys wanted me to be...
is it me or was it them? dun really wan to think lah... at peace n happy with my life now. Friends = primary of my life. Guys & Bfs are secondary.
sometimes it feels wierd talking to someone who knows u so well... coz u know he can see thru watever mask u put on. things have changed and putting on the mask seems all natural but time and again u know that the mask will be redundant.
Dun believe in that fairytale anymore. Maybe till i find third love then i might try to believe that it exist once again. To all couply friends, love n treasure ya other halves n build ya fairytale world! Dun forget to invite me! keke...

Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you
'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come true
You've made me love again after a long, long while
In love again
And I'm glad that it's you
Hmm, beautiful girl

Such a beautiful song.

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Monday, August 14, 2006

Gosh... Time really flies... Din realise that i've been back for 13 days liaoz... OMG. So fast... Still miss Europe and my lifestyle there manz... Blehz...
It's been a bustle of life back here... let's see... while i try to recall wat haf i been up to... hmmm
day 1... pepper crabs. pop by biz camp. MJ overnite
day 2... slept
day 3... lunch with the gals. shop. biz dinner. chill out @ wine & acid
day 4... visit mama. blade. stingray. MJ overnite again.
day 5... facial. dinner with ping-ers. fireworks with gals. nuah @ my place. prata.
day 6... church. shop. dinner @ chinatown. (family day)
day 7... gym. dinner @ ding tai fun. fei fei wanton mee.
day 8... blade. fireworks with jia & fel. tokyo drift.
day 9... national day! MJ camp.
day 10... pedicure. airport to pick maiko.
day 11... ICA. SN visit. Nice chat in sch with kit. jy's bday. geylang supper+durian.
day 12... meet maiko's potential roomies. Shop. Dinner & fireworks & coffee & tons of touring sg.
day 13... lunch & supermarket with mum! exchange BBQ. Movie. Adams.
sheesh... nothing but MJ, shop n food. Jialatz.
Next up... Gym.. chill out... more movies...
shucks... planless for the week ahead. MJ plssss...

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Sunday, August 13, 2006

HOW?!?!
Cannot get into my bottoms... DEPRESSING. SO DEPRESSING... A whole wardrobe full of clothes are staring at me but i can only blankly stare back at them. Cannot fit into them lah... SIAN multiply by infinity. how much fats i muz lose??? boohoo... suddenly feel to resigned to my size now... feel like just shopping for an entire new wardrobe... Losing that one size is how .........
HAIZ... HAIZ... HAIZ... On the hind side, I've been entertainment to my mum who can't stop laughing @ me trying to try my luck @ my current wardrobe... haiz haiz haiz...
Exercise... Gym... Blade... my life till i shed those lard. Haha... N dun tell me shagging is the best way of losing weight liaoz...

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so frigging sure i'm being blocked by certain pple on msn. Muahaha... Not that I really care... Just remember how some thot blocking or deleting others off were silly in relations to similar scenerios. Muahaha... Seems like it's saving their own comments for themselves. LOL.
call me a bitch if u want.. but i do love to bitch n grumble n whine.. Haha...
*bitchy mode*

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

been feeling a lil down.
but the beauty of fireworks dun seem to excite me.
so....
it's time for some nature fix n solitude.
wishing to just lie on the beach n gaze at the stars...
watch sunrise...
any interested parties to catch these magical moments?

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Friday, August 11, 2006

feel like a tai tai today.. haha... MJ last nite n pedicure today... Since my return... been leading quite a tai tai life... MJ, facial, pedicure n manicure... next up hair cut... n even better spa and massage... but i think i can continue to dream on.. haha... wish i could carry on this tai tai-ish lifestyle. Too bad can't... not even earning my own money... and that really sucks. I hate being dependent on someone else for money. I want to earn my own keep. Boo hoo...
Been back for a week... done a lot of going out for the past week... singapore's lifestyle. haha... kinda miss the slow europe lifestyle... but i'm not complaining abt the lifestyle here too... afterall i chose to allow myself to be busy. sometimes i really wish i could split myself into many parts so at least i can go everywhere at the same time...
MJ sessions r really fun lah.. haha... all the crappy talk.. n nonsense we haf.. haha... less the money losses... the girls rock! can imagine us sitting by the table playing mj years down the road... haha... think in tons of yrs time... we'll start reminicsing the young mj days. haha... one more mj session before sch starts plssss....
Thots are just swelling up my head... haiz... thinking abt the past... the future... it's funny how u look back in the past n regret some things u do... it's interesting to work out the physics of past relationships... how they failed... or how they never made it... BUT watever it is... i'm satisfied n happy with my life the way it is now... surrounded by all my friends... outings n all those... been kept bz... kinda like things as it is... maybe just short of a money earning activity. At peace with myself as well... though i still haf tons of thots to sort out... and stuff abt self to discover... otherwise all is good.
My to-do list is growing @ a disguistingly fast rate... the striking isn't keeping up... my shopping list is growing too... but cannot shop till i lose weight. boohoo...
LONG LONG day ahead... take my friend to settle paper work (n i never knew doing an exchange in sg involved sooo much paper work :S), go back SN (so excited to go see the gals n hang out in our old territory), visit our dearest camping friends n jy's bbq. Gonna be another fruitful day.
Bestow on me more fruitful days pls...

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

Passed sleeping time... so just surfing ard n found this on a friend's blog.
Dec
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... (so untrue) Better than all of these other months!
Loyal and generous.
Patriotic. (i really love my country... so much that i wore red without coerce into doing it on the eve of my country's birthday)
Competitive in everything. (a lil part of me is)
Active in games and interactions. (okie lah)
Impatient and hasty. (so damn blardy true)
Ambitious. (a bit lah... dreams a lil too much... lack the key to turn the dreams to reality. Blehz. ) Influential in organizations. (IZZIT? Since when?)
Fun to be with. (see moi mood... gets a lil crazy from the lack of sleep)
Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. (do i haf communications problem?)
Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. (no comments... dear friends, i'm that complicated to know meh?)
Easily influenced by kindness. (soft hearted. sucks lorz)
Polite and soft-spoken. (errrz... i'm sure some pple beg to differ)
Having lots of ideas. (why do i think the creative side of my brain isn't working???)
Sensitive. (over sensitive in my own opinion)
Active mind. (so true... but never active for the right things)
Hesitating tends to delay. (my forte lor)
Choosy and always wants the best.(hmmm...)
Temperamental. (yeah manz... my tail is easily trampled upon)
Funny and humorous. (hmmm...)
Loves to joke. (THE joke... me no jokes to tell)
Good debating skills. (hmmmm... wat's that man???)
Has that someone always on his/her mind. (TRUE TRUE TRUE... yes and alwiz and that frigging sucks)
Talkative. (i'm how shy and quiet... Muahaha)
Daydreamer. (currently daydreaming about my fairytale land)
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. (losing it manz... )
Abiding. (...)
Able to show character. (simi character???)
One guy/girl kind of person. (blehz... no wonder cannot more than one-time)
Loveable. (u be the judge)
Easily hurt. (yes & no... currently mending an injured knee... fell twice in 2 blading sessions)Prone to getting colds. (yes... my nose is currently DRIPPING)
Loves music. (ok lah... )
Pretty/handsome. (ermz.... )
Loves to dress up. (YES! but too bad... a bit no moolah... n lacking the figure to do so)
Easily bored. (OH SO TRUE... i'm RESTLESS...really very restless)
Fussy. (depends on wat lor)
Seldom shows emotions.
Takes time to recover when hurt. (who doesn't?)

12 hours mj session is keeping me awake... so bored that i can comment on a dec baby with regards to thyself... HAha... KO time!

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

dreamt of you...once again... is our meeting soon approaching?
somehow not interested in that day but i know it'll happen one day soon. Or maybe we ain't that fated
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why do i think the words u say dun mean anything? Hmmm...

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

kiruna

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.b.l.e.a.h.z.
i really dun mind being frozen now.

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i miss the fresh air...
i miss the peace...
i miss living alone...
i miss the lifestyle there...

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

bai bai, xiao xiao, myy (mei you yong)... these are the names that my dearest gals come out with over supper. try guessing who they refer to manz... i can't believe them... these 猪朋狗友 of mine never fail to amuse me... and times together involves 吃喝玩乐，逛街，being 损友 to each other. Haha... i simply adore hanging out with them.
n once again our lil 'swed' family had dinner together. not all of us but most of us. just miss the times we nuah at someone's house over food n dessert. Blehz... thanks jy for organising. Muz do this often k... even when sch starts :) at least now we dun haf to spend hours preparing... Keke... N highlight of the nite was of coz the spectacular fireworks that we caught while on the cabbie. Haha... Anw anyone ups to catch the other 2 firework displays???
N dearest Gracians... x'mas party @ the end of the yr k... Muz book u guys way way in advance. Haha...

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Saturday, August 05, 2006

F-A-T rings in my head. Haiz... Looking at all the past fotos n then looking at myself in the mirror only makes me depressed. I can't believe that I put on soooo much weight in just 6 months. *faintz* And i really mean a lot of weight. And the weight never seems to be distributed in the right areas, thus giving me super enhanced parts of my bodies... First being my face... (not as though i dun haf already pinchable cheeks coupled with the once prominent high cheek bone) ... Next being my hips... A thick chuck of love handle has almost made me feel like i'm wearing those ring floats... Then my legs, specifically my thighs... in the common termology... thunder thighs.. which my mum hasn't failed to make me feel any better by commenting that i haf fat thighs and butt (grrr... ) And of coz the tummy. *speechless* Why do they never go to the right places?!?!?!
N since i've pretty much prepared everyone on my fatness... I'm actually pretty much amused by pple's reaction or no reaction to my size now... No reaction coz they dun recognise me... The goldfish reaction... Haha... In financial terms... me is junk bond now... haha... N dun ask me how fat i am now k... coz i dunno how to tell u... It would be much simplier to ask those who have met me... I believe they would be able to give u a better description of thou art. Haha...
So i've decided to embark on a diet cum exercise programme. Diet has been pretty good... coz my irregular sleeping hrs (attributes to jetlag) means i usually get a meal a day. N the weather hasn't been stimulating my gastric juices to cry for food. N the fact that i know i'll be in this sunny island doesn't make me gian to cheong local delights. As for exercise programme, I attempted to embark on it today. Went blading... but i guess... i'm too heavy n have become clumsy... and thus ended up with me on the ground... Bruised, hurt, in pain n bleeding! which resulted in some nice friend of mine getting hit by the laughing bug. N my fellow 'land swimmers' included. It's my pleasure to make pple laugh. :S And i've been indulging in a lot of land swimming. Can ton arms. Muahahaha... I can't wait for MJ camp! Haha...
Shall go mend myself n catch some sleep. In GMT+2, it's time to sleep.

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Thursday, August 03, 2006

Found this one my old darling fujitsu... I miss those days... when will the whales reappear?

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How to get back to this size??? Booohoooo...

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

HOME! First post from GMT+8.
Hi EVERYONE! Thanks for all the welcome back! :)
I'm finally back after some stupid episode with that blardy airline. F***ing Royal D**** K**. And the super long delay. Only good thing is the air steward is charistmatic lorz... Tt's abt it... Anw back for more than a day liaoz.. haha... So wat haf i been up too.. Hmmm...
Landed and went straight away for some shiok black pepper crab. Haha... Finger licking good lorz.. Haha.... Then it was home to change up and off to sch to check out on biz camp. Haha... Biz camp looks fun this yr... Blehz... Wish i was there.. Oh wellz... And ended off the nite with satisfying my itchy fingers.. MJ lorz... MJ has never been so fun lorz... Haha... Our lil episode of shifting the table n crappy talk. Muahaha... Wellz... almost went for supper or rather breakfast at 6 but DIET so buai sai. HAha...
And so i slept for the rest of the day. Muahaha... Good way to lose weight lorz... Eat one meal a day only.. Haha... N decided not to club tonite... cut down the alcohol... Full diet programme on the way. Keke...
So dates are upz for going shopping (since i need new clothes coz i can't fit into those in my wardrobe), movies (last movie in belgium, inside man with kai n pk... sad hor), and exercise dates. HAha...
N i really swear by SQ. Haha... N their good service...

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